Hi Alex
Yes I do remember you, and glad to hear of your progress!!
Ok, so you're feeling much better, but get periods of suddenly feeling not well. After 5 months of starting the medicine, this is quite normal to get those sudden feelings, and they will go away eventually.
When you begin to recover, start feeling quite well, you'll get periods of feeling anxious, depressed, flat etc which can last a few days or maybe a week or so, and then you'll feel well again. I call these blips, and most people get them. Eventually these blips will get less and less until they no longer come.
Have no idea why we get them either, but it does seem part of recovery.
Anxiety makes our hearts beat faster, our stomaches churn, gives us a dry mouth, sweating, headaches, rapid breathing, makes us have endless trips to the toilet, can make us dizzy, muscle pain, clammy hands ..... it's our bodies reacting to adrenaline - preparing to fight or flight. Anxiety also causes us to have negative or intrusive thoughts.
i also found evenings were my best when I was recovering. I felt calmer then, and like my old self. Come the next morning I'd feel anxious and depressed again, which would wear off again in the evening. Eventually I'd feel calmer earlier and earlier in the day until I was able to wake up feeling good.
I've not tried Transcendental Meditation - must look it up, sounds interesting.
Hope that helps :-)
K x