ok so I'm 15 years old, I have anxiety and ocd and hypochondria,first I just wanna say I've been to doctors so many times and they all say there is nothing wrong with me and I'm perfectly healthy,but I've got a few questions about what I've been going through. Since I was around 7 or 8 I've had this feeling for a few seconds that I'm in a dream and unreal and it only happens during night time or when the room is dark: for E.G going to a cinema when the lights go out I suddenly get the feeling for a few seconds and then I freak out and then I eventually feel back to normal it always happens during night/dark I've had so many times that it happens and it's so uncomfortable and scary, and due to feeling like this it makes me feel hesitant to go outside at night and it pisses people off because they dont understand when they make me go out during night I say no and they get cross with me it makes me feel so bad I just want to be normal and say yes but due to past experiences I just dont want to go through that shit again, I've looked it up and most of the searches come up with depersonalization /derealisation and they say causes are trauma and abuse and bad experiences but the thing is I have never had anything bad happen to me/ around me all my family are nice people my mum and dad are really nice so I dont understand it has no trigger except for being in the dark. also I've got these other symptoms that arent just there sometimes they are constantly there it's like I dont really feel like me like I dont recognise my voice and face in the mirror it's like my sense of self is kinda gone it's not scary at all like the other thing I mentioned it's just strange,I've felt like I'm not really myself since I was around 14 so like around a year and a half ago, that's constant and I feel kinda spaced out and not really here I'm not sure what to do, am I ok? is there something wrong with me or do I just need to chill out more? again if I go to a doctor they just dismiss me and say I'm all good any suggestok so I'm 15 years old, I have anxiety and ocd and hypochondria,first I just wanna say I've been to doctors so many times and they all say there is nothing wrong with me and I'm perfectly healthy,but I've got a few questions about what I've been going through. Since I was around 7 or 8 I've had this feeling for a few seconds that I'm in a dream and unreal and it only happens during night time or when the room is dark: for E.G going to a cinema when the lights go out I suddenly get the feeling for a few seconds and then I freak out and then I eventually feel back to normal it always happens during night/dark I've had so many times that it happens and it's so uncomfortable and scary, and due to feeling like this it makes me feel hesitant to go outside at night and it pisses people off because they dont understand when they make me go out during night I say no and they get cross with me it makes me feel so bad I just want to be normal and say yes but due to past experiences I just dont want to go through that shit again, I've looked it up and most of the searches come up with depersonalization /derealisation and they say causes are trauma and abuse and bad experiences but the thing is I have never had anything bad happen to me/ around me all my family are nice people my mum and dad are really nice so I dont understand it has no trigger except for being in the dark. also I've got these other symptoms that arent just there sometimes they are constantly there it's like I dont really feel like me like I dont recognise my voice and face in the mirror it's like my sense of self is kinda gone it's not scary at all like the other thing I mentioned it's just strange,I've felt like I'm not really myself since I was around 14 so like around a year and a half ago, that's constant and I feel kinda spaced out and not really here I'm ok so I'm 15 years old, I have anxiety and ocd and hypochondria,first I just wanna say I've been to doctors so many times and they all say there is nothing wrong with me and I'm perfectly healthy,but I've got a few questions about what I've been going through. Since I was around 7 or 8 I've had this feeling for a few seconds that I'm in a dream and unreal and it only happens during night time or when the room is dark: for E.G going to a cinema when the lights go out I suddenly get the feeling for a few seconds and then I freak out and then I eventually feel back to normal it always happens during night/dark I've had so many times that it happens and it's so uncomfortable and scary, and due to feeling like this it makes me feel hesitant to go outside at night and it pisses people off because they dont understand when they make me go out during night I say no and they get cross with me it makes me feel so bad I just want to be normal and say yes but due to past experiences I just dont want to go through that shit again, I've looked it up and most of the searches come up with depersonalization /derealisation and they say causes are trauma and abuse and bad experiences but the thing is I have never had anything bad happen to me/ around me all my family are nice people my mum and dad are really nice so I dont understand it has no trigger except for being in the dark. also I've got these other symptoms that arent just there sometimes they are constantly there it's like I dont really feel like me like I dont recognise my voice and face in the mirror it's like my sense of self is kinda gone it's not scary at all like the other thing I mentioned it's just strange,I've felt like I'm not really myself since I was around 14 so like around a year and a half ago, that's constant and I feel kinda spaced out and not really here I'm not sure what to do, am I ok? is there something wrong with me or do I just need to chill out more? again if I go to a doctor they just dismiss me and say I'm all good, any suggestions? what does this sound likenot sure what to do, am I ok? is there something wrong with me or do I just need to chill out more? again if I go to a doctor they just dismiss me and say I'm all good any suggestions? what does this sound like
Hi Jacob,
depersonalization /derealization can be a normal part of Anxiety and/or also a result of medication along with many other things.
I had this for about 2 years Whist suffering with chronic anxiety and on meds.
If you are able to in your country you might want to try asking your doctor if they can refer you to a counselling service (talking therapy) CBT, they would help you find out why you are feeling the way that you feel at the moment.
It most certainly will pass over time
All the best 