The Fascination of watching the blood drip
turns to hatred of how or why I did it!
Cutting used to be a release
Now cutting is now just a part of me!
To see the colour of dark red
is a moment of escape from the thoughts in my head
It's my way of forgetting the life that I live
But these moments are just too short lived.
A life of misery, have so much self hate, a life of living with the world on my plate!
A life of so much sadness and sorrow,
the constant hope that there'll be no tomorrow !
Bless you.. I'm praying for you ♥
You should really think about publishing your verses, you have a natural talent xx
Thank you x but it's just words
I Feel like I'm going out of my mind tonight I want it over now
That's a very bitter-sweet poem, & I love it. I hope things get better for you, hon.
My arms and wrists are as messed up as my head, want to be gone now, want to be dead!
That wasn't meant to rhyme, sorry xx
Dondons
why not consider ringing
nhs 111. At least you will get a professional to speak with.
I think it would really help you tonight xx
Xx
Your poem shows how much pain you are in. Please ring the helpline dons ♥
Been there and done that a few times now, there's really nothing they can do for me, if the cuts are superficial, my mum had called them on a few occasions, I don't like to call people, I don't do well with phone calls xx
Thank you for the advice though, don't mean to shoot you down, I appreciate you trying to help and give me advice, I'm just far gone tonight, just want it to end! Xx
Beautiful. Keep writing. I understand about the limitations of the standard mental health strategies. I do not know your age, but have you ever heard of the Kairos Foundation? Google them to see of there is a weekend meeting, called Life Training, near you, if you are of age. It is not religious, it is not weird. It is simply life changing in a very positive way by helping people look deeply into themselves and being honest with themselves. It is challenging, logical. It changed me greatly. It is a world wide organization.
Stay in touch so we know how you are doing. Your pain can lead you somewhere wonderful in life. The flip side of dark shadows, is light. There can be no darkness without light.
Dawn, USA