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Mental health
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Can't sleep anymore..even worse than before 

Head still filled with these horrible thoughts 

Wish I knew how to cope, to understand what to do 

Because I'm really Struggling now to see another day through 

When I wake each and everyday I'm already wishing it away

Still trying to keep my head above the waves.

This life is really getting me down

Feel like I have no one around 

This life is full of tears and self hate 

Still trying to understand where I made my mistake 

To know why I have the world on my plate 

Doctors think it's a just a pill I can take 

To make me happy not sad, they think they can relate 

They can't, only someone who knows the things I've been through 

And not just read from a book and think they know what to do.

Don't enjoy things that I used to 

it's been a while 

Don't think I even remember how to laugh or smile 

People tell me it'll be ok things will

Get better soon 

Sometimes i want to tell them to do one! but I don't like to be rude! 

Maybe they're right, maybe it's true 

But my mind just doesn't work the way that theirs do.

I can't cry for months, sometimes more 

Then I cry more than I've ever done before 

Have no control over my train of thought

Just want to be freed from this net that I'm caught.

I just wanted a life...something...I didn't want much 

But I've tried for so long 

maybe nows the time to just give up! 

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Bless u. Could be written by me this poem just now. Xx ur very gifted hun, . Hope u find peace soon I truly do XXX

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Hang in there dondons please. I related to many aspects of your beautiful, heart-rending poem. Don't give up it's not the time, as your poem suggested. In fact you should write more poems, maybe you already do. You could share some on here as a therapy. I'd be happy to read them. Thanks dondons, don't give up. Just keep going looking for any spark of hope or positivity or whatever brings a meaning to it all.  

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Hi Dondons.Great poem.It's beautiful and I really related to it.Just don't give up! I know it's hard every day facing the same crap day after day.It just wears on you.I've prayed and prayed and although He has given me days or should I say parts of days of hope but others it's just so hard.I'm 54(in the US) and have battled IBS/anxiety/depression for 20 years,but to be honest as I look back probably my whole life.I've had good stretches of months even years where it wasn't bad and I could live a "normal" life.But for various reasons the last 10 months have been really bad.I think,maybe just maybe I might be starting to get out of it.He seems to be reforming me and I'm just trying to let go and wherever  God takes me that's where I'll go.It is so hard to let go though.I'm not trying to be preachy or anything.I don't know where you are about God and everyone has their own beliefs or not and I never try to push on anyone.It's between God and you.Just sort of trying to throw some support and love your way and this is my way of doing it.Sorry I'm ramblin'.Just don't give up.That poem shows the true beauty within you.We all just have to find it and open the door and let him in.HANG ON AND PRAYERS AND LOVE YOUR WAY!!!!! God Bless You,Bob