Hey, just wondering if anyone has any experience with Citalopram. I'm 23 and I've been suffering with depression and anxiety for a while now and have only just decided it was time to do something about it. A lot of stuff has been going on and it's now got to a point where I think every now and then that taking my own life seems to be the only way out. I know they say any feelings like this when first starting out with new meds can occur and I should tell someone but I don't really have anyone to tell. I'm in a very complicated relationship and don't think telling my partner that I becoming suicidal is going to help situations as my depression is already putting such a strain on us. My moms on citalopram but we've never been that mother and daughter that shares a lot. The thoughts are scary and I kind of feel there's not much convincing me not to.
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Hi Bellaathome,
firstly congratulations on son posting on here, it's a brave more to bare your soul even on a forum. Citalopram is an SSRI medication it stands for selective Seratonin reuptake inhibitors, they can take several weeks to take full effect but unfortunately the side effects can be instant and often add to how you already feel. Again by the time we seek help our anxiety and depression have already become fixed and we can continue to be in a dark place despite the medication. While suicidal thoughts are very disturbing there is a distinction between thinking and planning but you should/ hopefully have discussed this with your GP. You say there is not much convincing you not to, well I hope I can. You are a very important person, you have a strength inside you that you may not even know about. You have an illness and yet you have carried it for a long time without help from anyone, you feel alone and yet you are still looking for answers. You are on a journey through a dark place but you are not alone, on this site alone you will find many people who understand and will help, the Internet is full of information to help you, meditation, mindfullness, CBT and much more but most of all you are amazing, you will get control of your anxiety and one day you will help others because you have experienced it. You mention that your relationship is strained but you do not need to mention suicide, you mention anxiety, and explain that you are ill but no different than someone with diabetes. I'm sorry this is long and almost preaching but medication will not cure you, it is a tool and you must use the tools available to help yourself. Start writing down your thoughts and feelings, once on paper leave them there. I wish you relaxation, I hope tomorrow you spend time looking at the things I have mentioned and if you get stuck, just ask on here. You have my strength with you, I look forward to talking with you again.
David
Sorry about the spelling typed on phone 😳