7 weeks on 20mg Citalopram - I'm told it gets better and....

Treatment and medication
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…it seemed I did get better in fact I had a couple of days where I felt ‘normal’ . But now that am at 7th week I feel low again. The dark thoughts had returned and once again I’m wondering what is the point of living and picturing my end. In addition, today I had a strong desire to hurt myself again. Not to kill myself just to cause physical pain to shield the emotional pain.

I read other posts where people advise to stick to the medication and I have every intention doing so. I promised myself I give it at least 6 months as advised by my doctor. Maybe I should up my dose but my side effects were really bad. I was with the fairies as my friend who looked after me said then came almost daily migraines which has thankfully have gone now. I still cannot sleep at nights which is the only side effect left aside from low libido but that is the last of my worries.

I know I have to be patient but I’m very disappointed in this sudden dip.

Not sure what anybody can say I guess I just wanted my thoughts out there.

Wishing everyone a happier day.

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I had a big dip at 7 weeks the first time I took this medication and it was so frustrating, I totally understand how this can knock you back and make you feel like things will never improve. But, this is just a blip. You may experience a few of these over the coming months of recovery and that’s normal. They will soon become less and less and reduce in severity. Sleep is usually the last thing that improves. This feeling won’t last forever. This medication does work for most and will make you feel back to normal eventually. I’m in week 8 and still get anxious occasionally, but it’s important to just accept these blips and gently move on and they will loose there strength over time. You’re doing amazing, we’ll done for getting through the first few weeks.

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How are you now??