I know I always said that too. Its just anxiety playing its tricks on you though.
I've really got some insomnia with this. Guess it's part of it.
Hey Kate. Yeah the mornings are rough. But not as rough as they were initially. Then in the afternoon as I feel just flat and by evening feeling pretty good . I guess again this is typical isn't it?
Yes insomnia is usually a side effect of the meds - it does settle, though know how annoying it is. Some doctors do prescribe meds to help with this ... always worth asking if it becomes a problem.
Yep my mornings were always the worst. Well, sounds like you've noticed a tiny change already if you can see your mornings aren't as bad ..... it all counts, even if its only a slight improvement.
That also happened to me. Bad mornings, ok-ish afternoons and great evenings. That's how the meds worked for me. The great evenings slowly crept into 'great' afternoons, and then mid morning too. Still had bad mornings but the good started earlier and earlier ..... then one day I woke with no anxiety. All this took 6 months.
Those good evenings will grow.
K x
Hey Kate. Felt better Thursday thru Saturday. Then Sunday not real well since. I know it's probably typical just so frustrating. Will this even out? At 15 weeks now. Not as bad as I was initially but still just off. Should more time to feel good be expected?
I feel your frustration ..... I remember that so well. Feeling good then to be hit with it all over again. Yes, still quite normal for 15 weeks. I had this during all through the 6 months I was recovering, and after that I'd still get the odd one pop up occasonally. By the time I was better though the blips were less intense and became nothing more than just a nuisance.
Yes more time I expect. It will even out.
K x
Thanks Kate. It is frustrating. Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever level off and feel confident in feeling good. Evenings aren't as bad again. Just weird that I had a pretty good month then about eight rough days then 3 decent and then down again. So ready.
Its a shame these meds don't just make us gradually better over time without all the 'to-ing and fro-ing'. Very frustrating indeed. I'm not surprised people stop meds too early because they often think they're not getting better.
Evenings were my highlight too.
You're getting calm times - so that's really good. It will get better.
K x
Thanks Kate. So it's normal at 15-16 weeks to have downs. Lol. I keep telling myself that. Your testimonies are an encouragement. This blip doesn't feel as bad as the initial start or the initial blips but still very worrisome. Do these blips get less and less? At 4 months did they start lessening for you?
Even I get downs now after 8 months. My Doctor told me that these pills are not suppose to flat line us and make us feel nothing. We are still human and will have off days and to just go with it. Personally I would rather have some off days then expect and feel like the world is rosey every day. I do not want to be emotionless nor do I expect to be. That being said if the down days start over riding the good days at a long term then it is time to see the doctor again .
Yes they do get less intense and you'll be able to pay them no attention eventually ..... until they finally stop. You can however get a worse one occasionally crop up, but I doubt it.
Yes I started getting calm moments at around 3 months and by 6 months that was when those calm evenings had eventually spread into my day and I'd began waking without any anxiety. I did have the occasional blip after then but by then they weren't a problem.
Yes Danny - Lookingonwards is right.
You return to a 'normal' level like anyone else. Everyone gets flat occasionally, but when we're ill we overfeel it along with anxiety, and because we're anxious our minds become anxious too. When you're back to normal you'll feel highs and lows, joy and sadness just as the next person ... BUT it won't be that awful frightening feeling. Any scary thoughts are put to the back of the mind too and aren't a problem - because they're not accompanied by anxiety.
One of the best things I learnt after recovering was to relax whilst moving about my every day ..... because I know its stress that upsets my body rhythm (which is the main cause for a lot of people for anxiety) so I just let things pass over.
Yeah that's the realm of thinking I was trying to describe: the highs and lows without the anxiety. When I was well I would have times I was flat but that was ok. That's normal. Just looking forward to the times when anxiety isn't wreaking havoc. Thanks again. Hard being patient when not feeling good. Just so ready.
Yes ..... its just the prescence of anxiety that changes our everything. Without it we'd think and feel differently and cope with normal highs and lows.
K x
Hey Kate. This morning I feel like I'm almost back at square one. Anxiety up a good bit. Just wanna go home. Is this still typical at 16 weeks. Just worried it won't level out.
The anxiety will come and go in waves. Its such a pain I know.
My son took these meds too some years ago when he had a melt down and it took him 9 months to recover. I remember him being up and down for months with the anxiety too. His first 4 months he couldn't work and was signed off. He's fully recovered now and back to normal.
So yes, 16 weeks is normal for many, as everyone recovers at different rates (some quicker than others), and whilst waiting the anxiety will be up and down.
If you're getting good spells / calm times (whether they only last an hour or 2 or days) then the meds are definitely working - this is the typical process of recovery and its just a waiting game.
K x
Thanks Kate. Does he still take the meds? I just was thinking I had turned the corner there for 4 weeks and then the rug was yanked out from under my feet. I guess this blip is about 15 days in all. Do they typically last that long?
No he came off them last year and is still well. Yes it will feel exactly like that - as if you're back at the beginning again. This will happen time after time, but you just need to stay relaxed, carry on, and the anxiety will lift again. As time passes the blips will get less intense and finally disappear.
Yes blips can last any length of time. Best thing is to not fight it as that just makes you more tense which then produces more anxiety. Accepting this is a blip, stop adding more anxiety on top by fearful thoughts, relax .... all as best as you can and it'll pass.
K x
Thanks Kate. I hope and praying it passes. I can't stand the thought of it sticking around. Just wanna get better. Thanks for all your support. Really means a lot to hear from someone that's been through it. Today's been the worst so far. Hope to start coming up
Thanks Kate. I hope and praying it passes. I can't stand the thought of it sticking around. Just wanna get better. Thanks for all your support. Really means a lot to hear from someone that's been through it. Today's been the worst so far. Hope to start coming up