Hi - this is now my 8th day on citalopram. I was prescribed it following a funny turn after a very close friends funeral. First few days I could not believe it - my body was jelly and my head was floating round the room. Then things went awful - my head really went and I was in a state of total panic. I could not answer the door and this last weekend I ended up hiding in my bedroom. I have been getting 4 hours sleep and was a total nervous wreck - my heart is constantly racing and its been like that for 6 days.. What makes it really bad for me is I am a recovering alcoholic and have not drunk for quite a while. The way I was feeling was similair to the last days of my drinking and I was terrified I was going to pick up. I go to a lot of AA meetings but have not been able to attend any for over 2 weeks - I have been really rude to my friends coz I just seem to fly off the handle. I went back to GP yesterday coz I felt 10 times worse than when I first saw him - I saw a locum who has prescribed diazapan to calm me but now feel in a right mess. Though my friends funeral seemed to tip me I look back over the last 12 months and can see my behaviour has not been right - On occasions I seem to have been over reacting to normal situations but masking this with AA activities which is why I want to continue the treatment but blimey it feels bad at the moment.I had anxiety 10 years ago when my father died but dont remember it being like this. I found this forum and am taking heart from those who say persevere coz it gets better but it feels bleak . Am back to the docs this afternoon so will see what happens.
Hi Chris.
I'm currently on my fourth day and unfortunatly back to work. But I too have been experiencing that floaty sensation and numbness.
I attended a friends funeral yesterday was very hard emotionally and physically. Just felt numb and then cried for hours.
Try not to worry about your friends as i'm sure they will understand, and try do something that relax's you like a walk or having a long bath.
I find getting out into the cold air for a brisk walk clears my head.
And remember were all a support system on here so keep posting if you feel down or upset about anything xx
Dear chris f, Unfortunately only too familiar with these panic attacks, some times they are initially fuelled by the new med - which could take 3/4/5/6 weeks to kick in properly. I know how hard it is with these attacks a part of your rational side keeps telling you this thinking/senations are not the real me - but you nonethe less are swamped by these exaggerated feelings and just have to go with them. Reading some self books on anxiety/panic attacks can help, two I can recommend are: Self Help For Your Nerves - Claire Weekes and Understanding Panic Attacks and overcoming fear - Dr Roger Baker. Hopefully the attacks will susbde in time Chris. You wouldn't wish one on Lucifer, would you? Horrible, horrible experiences. Get well soon mate, as we are all trying to do on this forum. Stay in contact and tell me how you improve, as you certainly will. mq7
Hi - thanks for replies much appreciated.
Have returned to doctors today and he has upped my diazapan for the evening to try and help with the sleeping.(Think he did this after he took my pulse and found it pretty high)
I am still feeling bit panicky but am determined to stick with the treatment at the moment coz I do believe if I can get through the initial sticky patch i will feel the benefits. Not easy - I think when I went to the doctors coz I knew i wasn't right that I would be able to take a pill and feel ok - hmm guess it's not as easy as that !