Well how do I begin? About a month ago I was diagnosed with depression and what was expected to be social anxiety. This all a product of my obsession with how I look, specifically my teeth that have been damaged as a result of night grinding. As much as I can't bare the sight of my face, I can't hold back from viewing the mirror with all the lights in house flashing, just hoping that I'd become normal. I've been prescribed citalopram (only 10 mg) due to my age of 18 years, attended counselling sessions and even got my mum to buy me braces, which for the most part doesn't seem to have made a difference to my ever soul wrenching state. The one highlight to my every day is falling asleep, where there's no one to judge me and all my needs are fullfilled. Then I have to fu***** wake up and repeat the cycle, being greated every morning with an anxiety attack (that i've told nobody about) not even my twin brother or mum. Same bull different day, i'd just be better off dead in an endless dream.
Im sorry your feeling so bad, i was only diagnosed with depression amd anxiety a month ago aswell... its crap! I have a knot in my stomach and it feels like something bads going to happen even tho i know its not...you have to speak to someone about it,going through it alone will make it so much worse...have you tried a mouth guard at night to stop your teeth grinding? Therea a young man on here called arron whose going through a very similar time to you at the moment,try search for his post,its in depression group aswell i think you to would really benefit speaking to each other...
Stace..
Thanks a million for taking the time out of your day to respond to me, means alot. About the mouth guard, yes I do wear one, but too little too late I suppose. I have also come across Arron's discussion, but felt too afraid that I'll uncover that my individual situation is actually just affecting me, I'll try to reconsider though. Thanks again, and hope you can overcome your depressive state aswell.
Hi buddy,
How's your relationship with your brother. Is he supportive in any way? Can you open up to him about how you feel? You're very brave being so honest on the forum here and I hope you find some answers that you are looking for. Ultimately, the road to recovery may lie in your own power (with some professional help). A counsellor may be able to help you address your self-image. I'm having self-compassion therapy atm due to my battle with suicidal depression. I've been reading up alot about self-compassion and although it doesn't provide a quick fix to lift my depressive mood, it has changed my attitude towards myself and anger towards others. People in life let us down because they don't know what we need or are unable/unwilling to satisfy our needs. We are able to satisfy some of those needs ourselves, even though we think we need the approval of other people. You are a strong, intelligent young person - unique and special - with a purpose in life that only you can fulfill. The world will be a poorer place without you! Please let us know how you are getting on. Good luck on your journey of self-discovery. You are not alone and many people want to support you on the way :-)
Digsby
Hiya, i have been exactly where you are. I tried medication, didnt work. I tried counselling, didnt work. Maybe you should try talking to your mum or brother, i know it isnt easy but maybe it may help. Or maybe join an online chat room, sometimes talking to a stranger about it is so much easier than talking to someone you know. You also dont have to do it face to face then. Although feeling like you're better off dead right now, you're not. You are not alone!
Much love.