So I just wanted to share a positive post with everyone on this site, many times I have been at my lowest and come here for help trying to find out im not the only one feeling like I was and many of timea I have noticed there aren't many success stories. I am not cured and my anxiety hasn't gone but I wanted to share this today to maybe give some positive thoughts to someone feeling at their lowest today (I hope this makes sense). So I haven't suffered with anxiety for as long as others, probably about 6 months, it started off as mild panic attacks gradually getting stronger and stronger til the point I was depressed also (I have suffered with depression for many years but never anxiety).so exactly 17 days ago I started on citalopram 20mgand propanolol 40mg at that point I was at my worst for the first two weeks the anxiety was sky high the panic attacks were absolutely awful, I wouldn't widh them on my worse enemy, my mood was worse than low and I was ready to quit my dream job. Life was hard I wanted to sleep it away so I wouldn't have to feel. However this week has been different, yes I have had a few minor attacks I have still felt at times that I am not myself, things arent real and I have been to the point where I have not done something as I have felt so nervous, anticipating an anxiety attack I have changed my routine but then today after having a week off work I felt nervous all last night and all morning about going in. So I get in to work eventually and I feel nervous but I keep thinking to myself loud and clear in my head, I can do this, its ok, I am positive I am not negative about my life. So my supervisor says we are having a meeting about your development is that ok? So I am so scared I want to go home ao much I leave my coat on. My palms sweat so much wprse than ever my before they are dripping and my vision starts blurring in the middle of the meeting! I was ready to ask to go to the toilet when I say to myself very load and clear in jy head NO I wll get through this I WILL be ok im not going mad, im not going to collapse and faint and make a show and I will have a good day! My palms still sweated but my vision went ok and I began to calm down. The meeting ended and I acrried on with the rest of the day with only one additional blip! I am so so proud abd I just wanted to share this with everyone to say at some point you will also have this moment, it may not be everyday but its a start be positive and try your bloody hardest to aim for this because it can happen! Thanks guys. Liz!
Congrats Liz tough call but you made it,now do it as oft as you can and maybe you will get this under control,the victory is won,now let the battle begin,once again,well done.
Regards Malc
Hi Liz,
I respect you for your post and I have utmost respect for your grind to get through your day,
Good attitude and good luck
Well done, Liz. Brilliantly handled situation.