I am beginning to feel I am addicted to stress and the symptom is IBS. I have noticed a sort of war going on in my head where I need to keep myself in stressful situations. I don't really mind what the situation is but I am sure that I am getting worse. This morning I got up at 3.00 am to make my wife a chocolate cake, it took me until 5.30 am and then I checked my blood sugar and had some porridge and milled linseed for breakfast. Obviously the IBS played up and gave me cramping in my left side, but I could not stop myself until I had done the chocolate topping at 6.30 am.
There was no need to do this, my wife was surprised when she came down at 8.00 am knowing that it was all for her because I am diabetic. I need the stress of doing this.
Another moring I decided to do some maths tests on the internet at 2.00am. I don't understand what is wrong with me, I need the stress and have explained all this to my GP. He prescribed me some diazepam 2 mg but I don't like taking them because they take my motivation away and I miss it within 2 hours of taking them. I know I am hooked on stress and cannot get off it. I am fairly sure this is the cause of my IBS. The whole thing is generated by my state of my. Has anyone out there discoverd they are like me?
If you became addicted to a drug you can get off it by abstaining from the substance. Escaping from a state of mind that gives you a buzz is much more difficult, even though it is giving you IBS.
My memory recall seems to be increasing and my need for sleep is seriously reduced. What would you say I should do.
robert