I would like first to express my gratitude to you for taking the time to respond to me, you have helped me a lot.
Secondly, an apology for the delay in responding – I typed pretty much the whole of what follows into the web site yesterday, but the page froze and I was unable to send or even copy what I had written. My only recourse was to photograph the screen and then retype today – into Word first as a precaution!
I can’t answer your questions fully regarding my previous episodes I’m afraid, the memory of such events tends (thankfully) to fade.
What I can tell you is the following: -
My first episode was depression, no panic attacks, just despair at the failure of my GP and several consultants (dermatologists) to find any reason for my itching. I couldn’t sleep, lost weight, and had the usual “fight or flight” response which I responded to by walking, miles every day. Amitryptiline did little to help for a long time (months) but did eventually help me to recover well enough such that I’d actually started back to work before I was diagnosed with Hodgkin’s in September of 2000. My consultant haematologist switched me to Paroxetine; either that, or the fact that when I started chemotherapy and responded well the itching disappeared, rapidly helped and I was soon quite well again.
I should mention that the above may differ from what I may have said previously, I have reassessed my memories of the course of events with regard to the different drugs I’ve “sampled”
All went well until 2003, when I started to get a tingling in my arms, which is where the itching had started previously. I fairly rapidly went back into depression/anxiety (panic attacks this time) and was put for the first time onto Venlafaxine, building up to 225mg per day. I don’t remember how long this lasted, several months certainly, but I was able to continue working and eventually the meds and reassurance from MRI (or was it CT) scans that the Hodgkin’s wasn’t back I eventually recovered fully, though it did take a long time after I’d had the reassurance. I don’t remember any problems with side effects from the Venlafaxine, either whilst on it or when coming off.
I have never thought that I was particularly prone to depression/anxiety, my belief was that the two episodes were very explicable given what I’d been through. My wife (whom I love and depend on totally, we have had a wonderful married life for almost 50 years now) developed a particularly aggressive breast cancer in 2008, and whilst of course extremely concerned I didn’t go into any anxious or depressive state, remained positive and saw her through to her current state of good health.
This time around it started with a simple cold virus – it wasn’t even a particularly bad cold, but I felt very tired and out of sorts for what to me felt like a long time, probably a month or five weeks. I started to worry about my health, especially lung cancer (I’m a smoker I’m afraid) and rapidly descended into my current state – I’m told it’s health anxiety and it’s not uncommon.. I should mention that I’ve recently lost several very close friends, one from a heart failure, three to prostate cancer and another from pancreatic cancer. I feel this has probably affected me more than somewhat.
I am having problems sleeping – I take one quarter of a7.5mg Zopiclone every night, this sees me through for about 5 – 6 hours, at the moment I’m up about 5:00 every morning, in a fairly desperate state which does abate during the day. I’m eating well, in fact I get quite hungry on an evening, and always eat a good dinner, though not such a good breakfast and often no lunch. I’ve always been a heavy drinker, but at the moment I’m off alcohol virtually altogether – two glasses of 8% alcohol wine on one night in the last week. I am meeting people and going out, but not so much as previously. I am an ardent snooker player, and used to have at least one night a week at the club I belong to, but haven’t been in the last three weeks. I have no fear of social situations.
So, that’s my history in regard to depression/anxiety. Whether that helps you to advise me further regarding any future treatment I may undergo I don’t know. You will be glad to hear, I hope, that I have followed your advice to a degree – I’ve been back to my GP and he has agreed to reduce my dose by 37.5mg to 187.5mg per day extended release – this is day three, and too early I’m sure to expect any change. I do wonder if it will succeed, and how long before I may see any improvement if I’m going to – anything you can offer on those lines would help immensely.
I haven’t asked for psychiatric referral – frankly that would be a waste of breath, it’s not likely to happen until my GP is sure the Venlafaxine isn’t going to be effective. I have a review appointment in one month, if no better I’ll ask then.
Again my profound thanks for your kind help and advice – you must have helped many such as I on this forum, and it is appreciated.
Regards,
Mike