Here's my short story to make you feel better. I'm a 16 year old female. I was obsessed with the fact I had heart problems. Was rushed to the er 3 times. Sinked into depression. Didn't go to school. Lost weight & interest. Finally saw a cardiologist & there was nothing wrong. Felt really stupid when i walked in the cardiologist office full of 65+ year olds, & for them to check my blood pressure & say it was perfect. Echos, stress test, blood test, xrays, holters, ekgs, nothing.
None of this started until i started Googling.
You have to refrain from any Googling. It's just not healthy. You look up headache & clearly it's a brain tumor & you should seek immediate medical attention. We're trained to think like hypochondriacs. Especially from commercials & Google. There was a study done on Google about it's health diagnosises. It only came up correct 34 percent of the time. So it's about 1/3 that your self diagnosing is correct.
Doctors go to school for a reason. Anyone can type anything on Google anytime. Don't believe it. See a doctor first.
Don't drive yourself crazy. Illness or not live your life to the fullest. A friend of mines gas lupus & if she even catches a stomach virus or the flu it can be life threatening. But she lives her life happy. That's all that matters. Forget the self checks, Googling, & worry. Distract yourself. Excersise. Read. Play video games. Go out. Eat healthy. Drink plenty water. Meditate. & Pray. You'll be okay. Fear is just a state of mind. Once you embrace your fear, eventually it will become bliss. You'll get tired of worrying about the same thing. Especially if you can't control it. I know it's debilitating, but stay strong. You'll be okay.
Fear is not something we were created with. It's something we develop. From traumatic experiences, to simply hearing someone have a rare disease & feeling you have it. We create out fears. We feed into them. We entertain them. & As long as you do that, it will continue. I use to be afraid of cardiac arrest & heart attacks. So afraid that I wouldn't go anywhere. But i got so sick of depriving myself & not living fully, it soon fades. Because I knew I was strong. I knew this wasn't me. I reminisced on the person i use to be, how many times I was told I was healthy. & How there are people who would do anything just to hear that. I realized how blessed I was. & I felt bad that I was given such good health & here i am stressed about it. "Our biggest fear is not that we are inadequate, but powerful beyond measure." You are stronger than you think you are. You are healthier too.
-"be strong, be courageous. for God is with you, wherever you go". ❤
Peace. Love. & Happiness.