Advice help anything

Hi all I'm feeling pretty rubbish at the min don't think flu is working hate it that is lovely and sunny outside and I can't see the fun or joy in it it's easier to lie on my bed I've got two young kids and a hubbie I shouldn't feel like this they are brilliant and so supportive but my head would prefer to think otherwise 

I had to run errands today. I have a uti and needed to get an antibiotic. Maybe that’s why I have been having stomach cramps. Next Monday I have an appointment with a new psychiatrist. Came home and worked in the garden. Horrible day with anxiety. I can’t wait to take my Trazadone and go to sleep. One day closer to 8 weeks>

Would a good cry or a private scream in the car help. It does for me when I can let it out.