Alright so I've had a horrible past few nights.. it seems like my mind has an alarm set to wake me up around 1 am then at 4 am. Then I can't get back to sleep for at least an hour. If I try to sleep past that, my mind starts to race and I start to feel like im losing my mind or going crazy. I'll get up and try to do something and my vision is so blurry and I'm tired and confused/depersonalized. The first night it came on weird, I woke up around 1 or 2 am and felt like sh*t, then couldn't get back to sleep until around 5, woke up at 8 then slept like crap on and off until around 1. The entire day was horrible, I felt like I was going to drop dead and couldn't shake the anxiety. I took an ativan and got a little more sleep then the night before but was still not a full good night. Yesterday I felt okay, I was able to get up and do things. Then last night I fell asleep, woke up at 1 or 2 fell asleep until 4 then couldn't crash until 5 off and on til 8 then took an ativan and slept for an hour. I'm pretty anxious and feeling sick today now. I'm hoping tonight is better. I don't want to have to rely on ativan anymore. One doc told me I might be starting to show signs of bipolar disorder? I sure hope not..
Anyway, I'm starting to think about antidepressants I live in the US so if anyone knows any good ones that work with minimum side effects please let me know.... they put me on Lexapro and I couldn't get passed 2 days. Full blown headaches, no appetite, and no sleep. I couldn't get passed it. I would highly appreciate any insight on tips helping me sleep, tips on antidepressants and if this looks like bipolar please.....