Hi all. This is something I have been experiencing for a long time now. It seems to come and go. It isn't always there, but it never really goes away. Ok so this may sound strange.... but sometimes when I am out and out in public, especially in an area where there are other people, I find that (sometimes, not always) I feel like I am going to fall over and something terrible is going to happen, but I dont know what, and I want to get to 'safety' whatever 'safety' is, but I dont feel safe, and I need to be by a wall or something so that I dont wobble over. Sometimes I just have to stop wherever I am and try to breathe, pause and carry on. I feel unsteady on my feet. I suppose it's like how you may feel walking on a narrow platform, unsteady and unstable. Funnily enough (and I think this is something I have subconsciously taught myself), walking on grass/fields is fine, but concrete/pavement is not.
This all started one day in 2011. I was part of a local magazine/media company and we'd been tasked with going out on a Saturday morning to sell this magazine at a local market. I remember feeling overwhelmed by the task (I was just a writer for the magazine, not a salesperson, but it was all voluntary, so we all got roped into all tasks and demands to make money). I remember feeling absolutely horrible but afraid to tell anyone. I didn't know my colleagues very well. I remember feeling like something so horrible, even worse than death, was going to happen to me, that I was literally seconds away from running into an estate agents (which I happened to be in front of at the time) and begging them for help. Help from what, I don't know. But I was terrified. I kept having to stop in my path. I kept feeling like I was going to die to get sucked into some horrible other dimension or something that I couldn't control. It was the worst thing I have ever felt. I said to my colleagues, when I could manager to speak, that I felt unwell, and needed to go home. They weren't sympathetic and mocked me for being a wuss. I scrambled home, literally, had to crawl some parts, just to get back and into safety.
Anyway, thats when it all started. Sorry for rambling.
Anyone experienced anything remotely similar?