I’m hoping someone can help me or at least relate. I’m 24 years old and I’m afraid to live my life. The thought of dropping dead at any moment is constantly on my mind.
When I was a week away from giving birth to my first child, my grandma dropped dead in our garage. I was the only one home with her at the time so I had to perform CPR until the paramedics arrived. Needless to say it was a traumatizing experience and because of that I struggle with the thought of dying 24/7. I also lost my mother to cancer (she was only 42) while I was pregnant with my 3rd child. I miss her very much and she was really my only friend. I am very intune with my body and any “weird” sensation sends me into a panic attack. I suffer from PACs/PVCs which cause me great anxiety. I have had numerous amounts of blood work done which are all normal, CT scans, etc and 3 healthy pregnancies. I have 3 beautiful kids and just married my best friend of 7 years. I just want my life back. But I don’t know what to do. Thanks for listening 😁