All alone after finding out about having Genital Herpes

i found out when I was 2 months pregnant at 7 months I asked my babies father to leave for lots of reason 

my baby is now 18 months and I have not been with any men I also get lots of re-occurring outbreaks but the problem is I suffer with emetophobia (sickness) and won't take any mess that can cause this so I just ignore the outbreak as best as I can !! But I get them at least once a month and make me feel so ill can anyone here suggest anything I can try x

You need to go to your Dr. or GYN ASAP to start on antiviral meds. Try to keep your stress level down if at all possible as this will contribute to outbreaks.

Hi I know what your saying but because of my phobia it stops me from going to get meds!!!

i can handle the outbreaks but it's just the sick feeling I get and headaches while I'm having a outbreak I'm finding hard to combat

Explain your phobia to me sweetie...I'm sorry I'll help and encourage you anyway I can. The meds will STOP your breakouts. You should not suffer through them! Eventually you'll be virtually breakout free with meds.

Hi it's a sickness phobia basically anything in life is a struggle 

taking meds with sickness as a side effect going into hospital to visit someone in case I catch a sickness bug foods cooked right etc the list goes on....

but the herpes is getting out of control prob get it once a month if not twice!!! But the symptoms are the usual feeling down below but headaches and feeling sick x is this normal x

Sorry hun, I'm having a hard time grasping in detail what you're trying to convey, sldue to the grammatical errors... I know we all post from pur phones, but can you be more detailed and pay attention to your grammatical errors, such as commas and periods please? Thanks.

Absolutely normal. I felt the same way. I've been dealing with this for 9 years but have only had maybe 6 breakouts other than the initial one.

Geez... You're lucky... Do you have 1 or 2? Do you take meds daily?

HSV-2

Wow .. You're lucky you don't experience much obs w it. What's your experience w disclosure like?

I've only had one person reject me once o told them. I'm always upfront right away. Then one guy I was so in love with was with me for 2 years and knew about my condition. He broke up with me and emailed me telling me "Good luck finding someone willing to put up with it....ummmmm he did for 2 years so??? Jerk!

Wow... What a j*rk! Did he break up w you over it? Did you ever pass it to anyone?

No. He just did it to be cruel. I've never passed it on.

How long do you wait to tell?

It depends. I just kind of feel the right time and it happens.

Wondering what that looks like on a calendar... Lol....

So what was the one guy's reaction that rejected you? Like did he never talk to you again?

No he was nice to me. I avoided him awhile then one day we spoke again.

I've also got emetophobia, I suffer with an anxiety and panic disorder and sickness is one of my main triggers of that.

The antivirals I was on didn't cause any feeling of sickness at all, I know it's hard seeing the huge list of side effects they put on medication but i would definitely talk to a doctor and mention your phobia too, they might be able to talk you through the possibility of side effects etc and reassure you enough to take something x