Hi, Having anxiety disorder for 2,5 years and it has effected my life a lot. Lost my study, school, job, friends.. Basically everything. I'm 19 years old. Recently started doing freelance work. One time a week, because I want to build it up slowly. We wanted to start off with only 30 minutes, but at the end I stayed for 2,5 hours, because I felt like I could handle it and I was actually quit calm. Not a full 100%, but it was a big difference from I was expecting. But again I feel depressed because the first 5 minutes weren't nice and I felt very anxious and nervous. When I walked to the bus from there which is like 20 minutes I felt very dizzy. I don't get it why I can't feel any better. I can handle anxiety better then before, but still I just feel constantly not nice at all. Like overall it went ok, but then I am thinking of all the stuff which I can't do (yet) and it makes me so depressed. Like still I have no freedom and I'm always alert on my body and mind. Can this change? Personal goal for me is to be able to drink a beer again, because then I know I can let my alert mind and body go away. I can't imagine me doing that now.
Hi it’s better to think of all the things you can do rather than what you can’t. That way you will praise yourself. This is positive and not negative. Tell yourself you are taking small steps which will then lead to bigger ones. Anxiety is a terrible thing to have and you are doing very well in coping with it. Persevere as recovery is often 1 step forward and 2 steps back but I am sure you are making steady progress in the right direction. x
It’s hard to think that way if you’re sitting in this situation for so long at my age. I feel like I ruined years of my life and that I still am. I feel sad that I can’t live the life I want to live. Only positive thing I can name after these years of anxiety is that I know a bit better who I am. But looking at the opportunities and experiences which I didn’t took in my life feels really bad. Living this way makes me tired. They say that this should be the time of your life…
I had a busy weekend compared to how I usually live. I had fun, but there is always that I feel like I am living to close to my feelings and thoughts and that I can make myself crazy/anxious/nervous/depressed with it. Like I can’t be fully be relaxed at any time. I have zero procent trust in my body and mind. Why? I don’t know, but I really don’t know how I could change that. Before I had a anxiety disorder I had this same problem. I had a tough youth with domestic violence which also didn’t help to develop myself positively.
Well I have suffered from depression since childhood many years ago now. I long decided I had to sort my life out as I couldn’t have gone on living like that. My life has suffered immeasurably through the depression as I have never been able to have a partner or have children due to my issues. I have had relationship problems and job problems due to it.
But (there is always a but) I have made the best of what I have and would say my life is much better than no life at all. That was the choice I faced. I made the decision to concentrate on the positive things in my life and not the negatives. Decide what you need and take steps to provide it. If you need help then seek out counselling like I did. x