I cannot do this anymore !. I was picking a pimple this morning because I’m hormonal and it was pretty large on my chin .due to this of course it was weeping . I work with someone who’s status I’m told ( I have no facts of this btw ) is hiv + . This person of course wished me a merry Xmas because that is what nice people do with a kiss on the cheek and some people are breaking for holidays . I am now riddled with worry that we may have shared fluids . this person often has bleeding mouth sores and gums , i feel for him but in also so arrogant and judgemental which I never used to be and I cannot think like a normal person . Right now I don’t even want to be here anymore , I hate the person I have become and I’m honestly getting worse with fear . I am over it . I dont want to hurt myself but admittedly i do understand why people just want an out . 😞
Hi C, dont feel bad because your anxiety exacerbated your concerns. it sounds like your concern mushroomed out of proportion. its ok, we all have had days where things get heavy or even have bad thoughts that later youre lole- why didni ever think that?. it doesnt mean that youre a bad person. you are recognizing that your response isnt what you intended. if you are worried about your health do you have a place to go where you can do an HIV rapid test? it takes less than 15 minutes to get tested and your results. though i recommend you visit the HIV association website to get informed because what youre worried about may get clarified by what onfo they provide . itll be ok, youre a good person. dont forget that.
its just a bad day. bad thought. not a had life.
It’s highly unlikely to have caught HIV through someone giving you a kiss on the cheek even with a spot.