My name is Katie and I'm 17. This has been on my mind for a long time now but I'm too scared to speak to anyone face to face at the moment because I think they mighy think I'm being dramatic. I think I'm depressed and I don't know whether to go and see my GP. I have felt this way since I was about 14/15 and can't remember feeling any different since then. I just feel hollow and almost empty, I don't even feel sad anymore just emotionless. At times it is worse for example when I get into arguments with my parents but apart from that I just feel the same every single day and it is so tiring. I feel mentally exhausted from doing nothing, if that's possible? I also feel so so tired all the time and feel as if I have absolutely no energy whatsoever. I'm currently studying for my A levels and this means that I have quite a lot of free periods. I spent these at home sleeping if I can. All I want to do is sleep. I also have quite bad skin and this makes me feel disgusting and not want to even get out of bed, brush my teeth, wash my hair and go to school. When I am in school and around my friends I feel slightly better than when I am at home, I can get along with them and try not to be moody. At home I hardly speak and when I do it's either being moody towards my mum and being unintentionally mean to my sister. This all makes me feel very guilty. I also have a boyfriend of 2 years and I don't feel as excited/happy when I go to see him anymore, I have completely lost interest in having sex and I feel this may also be due to be feeling very fat and ugly. I always question why he is with me or why he likes me when I am so ugly. I don't know what to do. I have so much more to say but I've said the main things that are causing me problems. This is interfering with my life, I have an ambition to become a psychologist but that means going to uni and that means getting good grades. Good grades need motivation, energy and a good frame of mind yet I'm completely lacking in these things. Please help I'm almost dep separate now
It is completely normal to feel this way, especially being a girl at your age! Try reading some self help information online, llttf.co.uk is a good place to start. But make sure you book an appointment with your GP too, it's the best way to start getting professional help before it's too late. By the sounds of things, you're feeling very down and anxious about things, so they will be able to offer you the best advice.
Going to see a doctor is a very brave thing to do, they will recognise that and try their best to help you cope.
Keep your head up, this is the first step to being happy again :D
Hey Katie, I'm an 18 girl in exactly the same position. Doing A levels and everything but have no motivation and just feeling like a shell all the time, It's exhausting. I feel so empty and emotionless but angry and upset and it's all so contradicting. And my head feels like such a mess. Just like you at home I don't really talk to my family and get angry with my brother and it does get better when around friends but as soon as that good thing goes, it's just back to nothing. If you need to chat or have any advice it would be great to talk, I don't know what to do. Grace x
Hey Katie, I'm 19 and its been over 6 months that i feel like this. At night I hate myself for being like this. I don't know whats going on and I've never felt like this before. I'm not even sure what triggered it. I was hoping it wasnt depression but I've been reading and it seems like that could be the answer to why I'm being like this.
I feel the SAME WAY! I keep thinking about talking to my family about it but this voice keeps saying "why bother?" I keep wanting to cry until I die but yet I find myself too tired to do even that. I'm failing math now and I can't sleep for more than 3 hours each night and I feel so empty and when some person says on an internet quiz 'I understand.' I just think how could you understand even PART of what I'm going through?!? I find myself feeling everything at one moment to nothing the next.