Am I normal?

Digestive health
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Hey.. my name is della... i just wanna ask about myself.. maybe someone can help me for it.

This are some condition that i have:

1. I feel like i hate everything like i have no more motivation of living my life.. it's start 3 years ago when my mother passed away, but it's ..

2. I have very sensitive temper.. like easy for me to crying,angry,or hate something not a big deal.. for eg: my father didn't ask about my condition.. i don't really have a good communication with him.. but i ty my best to still ask about his condition even in chat..

3. It's easy for me to make an imajination.. i don't know from where or how i make it.. like i talk with someone else.. something i don't even espac.. like very deep conversations, and i realize that it's only my imajination.. but it's keep going like this every day and i don't know why?

4. I realize that people not as good as i thought.. like they have their own ego.. and i can't even feel sinceres when i talk to them..

5. I don't feel like myself.. like i know who i was.. the happy one the smiley one.. the bright one.. but now i feel like more and more flat..

6. Somehow i feel guilty for myself.. like i don't like my life..like when i pray i'm crying.. i wanna change to be someone else in another places.. meet someone else that i don't even know.. try to make a realitionship with them.. make a new life..

7. Somehow i wanna stop time.. or i just wanna desapear...

What should i do to make my old life and cherries back? 'Cause i can't stand for it anymore.. it's been 3 years and it's hurting me more..

Maybe i'm tooo desparate but i don't even know what things that full on my mind.. i feel more stupid, can do socialism, can belive in anything, tired, and uncomfortable..

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How old are you? And I lost my mum when I was 11and now I'm 21 and I found it hard to talk to people about it and it always seems like there issues are worser than your own and they ask about your promblems I totally understand where your comming from and still to this day I bottle things up then going mental over the stupidest things! If you ever want to talk with some one with similar horrible pasts am always here I had no body to talk to cause I was so young and only past 2years I've started opening up and taking cbt councling and depression and anxiety tablets x

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Dear Della,, Of course you are normal.

                                                                Not going to ask what is normal, but to comment on the range of thought and depth of consideration? 

Excellent to question and debate but we are all different even children to parents. I expect that your father would have his own issues and battles to face. As you have already indicated, So you are aware of a full range of human emotions and relationships. You don't say anything about health or what kind of condition you are facing. Be gentle with yourself, try to have a laugh and see the silly side of life now and again.

                             Thinking of you , E