Hi. This is my first post. Have been reading the forum since last week. Have been on flu for 21 days. Everything seemed to be okay but last week was terrible. Tuesday had really bad shakes at work and had to keep getting up to go to loo for some respite. Managed to stay in work all day some how but couldn't manage Wednesday so phoned in sick. People at work know I'm having some problems. Thursday went to a different site at work and Friday worked from home. Then weekend was terrible. Just worrying about having to go back to work which I did yesterday and everything was great. Had a 1 to 1 with my boss and she was very understanding trying to think of ways to help me. The had my 2nd session with my counsellor last night. Again that went well. Felt on top of the world last night but today feel crap. Went into work, had to go to a seminar and I think the travelling on the tube just pushed me over the edge; just felt really agitated and restless and couldn't stand the thought of sitting in a room full of people for the next 6 hours and left. Only just got home and that proved to be a real challenge. Have taken a couple of Valium in the hope they'll stop the restlessness.
Have read some of the posts on here and understand that it's not just me feeling like this and suppose that gives some reassurance but still keeping wishing that I could be back to normal self. Seem to have been spiralling down for the past four months and have only just taken the courage to go to the Doctors for help. This is despite my my Mum and partner, who have both been very supportive, nagging me to go. At least I have made the first step but just wish there was some quick fix.
Think my main problem has been work related and probably I'd be best off having some time of sick but it's the going back afterwards that worries me most. What If the situation is just as bad when I go back. Fortunately my partner and I have a week off next week so hopefully I'll be able to relax a bit then and flu might have taken more effect. Will be week 4/5 by then. Fingers crossed.
Anyway I keep checking the site and reading about you all and it does help to know I'm not alone.
it will get better. I’ve been on Fluo for 8 weeks and have had some very low times but the Fluo is starting to help me feel better. I’m not talking about massive changes and being the same person i was 3 years ago but it is going in the right direction. Spend more time with people you really care about and care about you, that helps a lot. I still spend a lot of time on my own but when i force myself to go out and be with people i feel better, it’s too easy to stay holed up in your ‘comfort zone’ (because it’s really not that).