Guys I obsess about my own personality constantly. Whether I be a bad person or a good person. Because of this I can’t enjoy anything without worrying. I just feel uncomfortable all the time. It’s depressing. My social phobia is severe as well and when I’m outside I’m anxious someone would talk to me. Just being around people no matter who makes me anxious. I’m in therapy and I’m doing difficult exposures, but I keep feeling so shitty. My derealization is bad as well. I honestly don’t know what to do anymore. It’s the first thing I think about in the morning and the last thing when I go to bed. I just want to be ok with who I am!:( My thoughts are almost all negative and got scanned for danger and so I’m fearing even the simplest things. I’m afraid negativity can influence my behavior and who I am. I can’t watch movies and I can’t listen to certain music I can’t let my emotions come through without anxiety. I’m just constantly afraid of losing control. This is a big struggle
I know how difficult it can be and I’m sorry you have to go through this. Stay in therapy even when you start to feel a little better.
I am someone who’s had anxiety and D realization for many years and I can tell you that the more you worry about it, the worse you’ll feel.
Another thing I learned along the way is that People are so concerned about their own lives that nobody really has the time to wonder about us or for that matter even care. Of course close family and friends care, but in general the average person doesn’t really think about us. That’s when I started to relax around people I don’t know . I honestly don’t care what other people I don’t know think about me anymore as long as I feel good about myself and I am good person. they have absolutely nothing to do with my life.
Do things that help relax your mind. I had to learn to stay out of my head and stop going over things again and again. It is useless and just made me feel worse. I started looking at the big picture instead of all the little tiny things that I felt I had to make decisions on. Go for a walk in nature, listen to relaxing music or Nature Sounds, listen to some great meditations on YouTube for anxiety, . Another thing that takes the focus off of myself is doing something for somebody else. It feels good to do that.
whenever you fear something, do fact checking. For instance, if you’re afraid of flying, ask yourself how many planes takeoff every day without you even knowing , check into the safety record of flying versus other modes of transportation. Etc. The thing that gets in the way of reality versus negativity is emotion. in this case, fear. I do hope you stay in therapy and take one day at a time.
Remember that anything you think of whether it’s negative or positive, it will EXPAND . start working on stopping yourself every time you get a negative thought or say something negative. Reverse it to something positive right then and there! You have to be persistent with this. Even if it doesn’t feel natural, your brain is picking it up. you can learn so much more with a book called mindfulness. It teaches you how to get over all of this and manage better. It’s a white book with a ball of strings on the cover. It helped me a lot! I hope you feel better soon!
Yeah, I know that the more I worry the worse it gets. I try to shift my attention, but it’s very difficult. Just in everything I can see danger. I am not sure if there are many people who are feeling the way I do, but it’s horrible. It’s just a constant struggle. I’ve got a lot of thoughts running through my mind which freaks me out about myself. This is probably ocd. The difficult part is that I have a hard time to think about something that actually gives me joy. I just feel so so out of place. I can’t really describe that fully. It’s probably routed in derealization, but I’m not sure. Life just feels very overwhelming. I’m very stuck and I’m in this for 4 years now. I’m afraid I can’t get out of my situation. I can’t remember anymore how it is to feel good.
Sorry I’m so negative. I appreciate your response. I don’t have a lot of people where I can talk to.
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I suffer from anxiety,depression, and have suffered through derealization and dissasociation. I felt the world around me wasnt real,people werent real and i was just i a dream state going through the motions but had no emotional connection to anything. I am controlling mine with medication but if you need to talk to someone who has been through it I can be that person. I have suffered with this since i was 17 years old and im now 31 years old.