Well it's 00.21am and I feel totally normal..calm...no unwanted negative thoughts or if they have passed my mind they have just faded away without even having to try. Most nights I feel like the day I had happened to somebody else.
I'm a mess most days. My head struggling and wondering if I will make it through. I'm frightened and either rushing around keeping busy to distract myself or sitting with the anxiety trying to let it pass over me.
Will all this level out at some point? I mean why am I in such a state all day long and then feel at night like I was never ill.
I'm sat here now thinking that tomorrow I will cope but yet tomorrow comes and yes I get through it but I wouldn't say I cope.
I suppose I should think myself lucky that I'm managing to get some ok time. Is this a sign that my meds are working?
Yes it is. I'm having better days as well my meds are starting to help. I know its only been a week but mine will get better the longer I'm on them.. I take ativan for bad anxiety and it helps a lot.. We will get better together.. 😘❌⭕❌⭕
We will sugar...
We are all in this together xx
Amen Gilliam ☺ god is good. I pray for all of us on here every night. ❌❌❌
I'm so sorry hun.. I know what this is like. I'm 21 years old and had my first attack at 13 during middle school. It's been getting worse as I've been getting older. I suffer from depression, OCD and anxiety. My doctor prescribed me Zoloft but with my OCD I'm too afraid to take them. Out of fear of an allergic reaction or side effects. Today I felt so so ill.
rushing thoughts
tightness in chest
heavy breathing
shacky arms and legs (very hard to stand)
dizzyness
heart palpitations...
at night I get them real bad too..sometimes I wake up gasping from air or I'll wake up jolting. Sleeping on my back is a HUGE no no.
I constantly worry if I will make it though, and I worry what the heck is going on in my body and if im going to die..so many things...
its a life long battle..but we are in this together! I think what helps alot too is when we all can relate to one another. <3
*hugs* hang in there sweety, I can totally relate
Hi Gillian, just wanted to say that your such an inspiration and support to others on here, i regularly read your posts. Take each day as it comes. I am better if i try and keep busy too.
Hi Gillian, im similar to you in that mornings are the worst, then its a slow improvement through the day until when I go to bed the world seems a pretty decent place! Right now (10.40am) im feeling a bit rough and the obsessive thought (that you know about!) Is flying around my head at a zillion miles an hour. Im coming to the end of my 7th week on cit, how long have u been on meds now? Stay strong Gillian x
Funny at night late I feel OK maybe like I should feelall time and I think maybe I wake up in morning better but no same all day anxiety no energy and I worry all time too realy feel wasting life in this way wish I could level OE least one day not be fighting this or wish even knew what wrong feel like going mad sometimes or I am
I also read always about pains in chest or can't breath in don't have this but all restbrealy bad pins needles tingling sometimes my legs just go sleep numb can't even stand on it sick feeling constant in my middle stomach no energy teeth numb tingle metallic wierd wish you all best day possible just rant want answers try see if relate can't think positive try but it wins
Hi Gillian,
I'm the same as you - struggle every single day, all day with pain, dizziness, horrible scary thoughts etc then by the evening (around 10pm) I feel totally normal, like I suddenly got over it all! Only for the next morning to wake up feeling absolutely terrible again! It's a nightmare. But if your like me and worry about illness or something being medically wrong, then this should put your mind at rest because if it was something serious, the symptoms wouldn't disappear! I'm not on any medications so maybe it's not the meds and you are just having rough days and good nights!
Hope you feel better soon x
Mines worse in the morning also. Any suggestions on what to do?
I'm also anxious all day racing thoughts negative thinking, blurred vision strange head sensations then come evening it lifts and I think il b fine next day then bam it starts all over again, I feel I wish my days away now 
Maybe we feel like this on a evening because 'the day is done' kinds of thing?
Hi Gillian I always look for your posts because the support you give other people is amazing . Just wanted to say I've just had a good week and I feel things are really settling down now . I've got up each morning without my head going 100 mile an hour a few blips but nothing major and I was like you I felt fine at night then when I woke up in the morning BAM off we went again . I just feel like the last 4 months I've been to hell and back so it will get bette! It as got better you and everyone on here will get better just hang on to the ok time your having take care! Be STRONG xx
I am like that. A total mess in the mornings, and by the evening I feel no anxiety at all. It must be something to do with our bodies, but don't know what. A mystery to me. I am not on meds though.
It took a month and a half for my SSRI to kick in. It was hard to be patient with the wait. Also I would have anxiety during the day and it would somewhat vanish at night. For me, everything is so quiet at nite and no rushing around. I pick up on other peoples moods and make them my own sometimes. I'm very empathic. Maybe you are too?
good luck and have a nice day💜
Thank you so much Amanda.
I try to give support on my experience of anxiety/depression 13 years ago and how even then I felt I'd never return from the dark,scary place I was in. I did,stronger and better than ever....Even though I'm going through it again now and have them fears again,,it helps talking about that time because not only does it reassure others,it also reminds me that it is possible.
I love helping and feeling that just maybe I helped somebody through a bad moment.
Thats why I love it here. We all get and we all want to help xx
Thank you ever so much Elizabeth xx