This is going to be very very hard to explain but, oh well. I get very nervous and anxious about the most normal everyday things, like sometimes in the morning before going to school I get very worked up and nervous even though part of me is saying that I’m not nervous I don’t know why I feel this way. Sometimes I feel anxious about going to public places even though I don’t need to talk to people, like them just being there makes me get all fidgety and scared (especially in public pools, that is the most horrific thing for me). I also have very close friends who I have met on the internet that I love with all my heart, but when I go to chat with them on discord (actually talking not typing) I get extremely nervous. I am so close to these people and I don’t understand why I can’t manage to communicate with them correctly. Sometimes I shake, and sometimes when I’m nervous my hand does this thing where part of it gets really cold and it’s strange. I just wish I could communicate with them correctly. I also just sometimes get anxious for no reason. Like I’ll just feel like something terrible is going to happen but it’s not. I also expririence fatigue, stress, pain on the back of my head, and stutters. I feel like I have anxiety but I don’t even have a bad life, why would I have it? I also try to tell my mom but she says I’m acting this way for attention. She doesn’t believe I have anxiety and acknowledges other people problems and never mine. Like sometimes I want to tell her about something and she says “but so and so has this and you are very lucky and-“ so on. I feel like somethings wrong with me. A lot of people have it worse but I just feel horrid. I also get seasonal depression for various reasons and this just makes me feel worse about all of this. I don’t even know why I’m like this but I’m trying to put on a happy face and act like everything’s ok. I wish that I could be the kid my parents want me to be, and I wish they would try to accept the fact that I may have anxiety and mild depression. They send me to a psychologist but I honestly can’t talk to her about how I feel well. I can’t talk to anyone. I feel like I would just bother them or they wouldn’t understand. Help? (Sorry if this is very messy I was just rambling so it’s not very organized or well explained)
Hi Amber
Sorry to hear you are struggling and feel alone. It's awful when you feel you have no one to turn to. It's a shame your Mum can't understand, if you have never suffered with mental health issues I believe it's hard to understand what a person is going through. Talking is the way forward, as hard as it is for you. Do you have another family member you could confide or close friend? It sounds to me like you have social anxiety which would explain your feelings of unease around groups of people.
You said you are already seeing a therapist, I think you need to try and open up to them, however silly you may feel, as they will be able to help if they have all the facts. Does your school have any counselling facilities? if so they may seem less overwhelming, I am in the UK so not sure how your schools work but my daughter has had some help from the school and they are lovely. Ask someone in the school office to point you in the right direction.
There is a lot of help out there if you could just pluck up the courage to open up to one person. You can also find a lot of tips on the Internet if you spend a bit of time, there may be some advice you could use to help you move towards opening up to someone properly. I promise, it gets easier the more you do it as you will see there is nothing to be afraid of.
X
Sounds like anxiety to me. You don’t have to have a bad life to have anxiety it’s usually a chemical imbalance. Everyone gets nervous or anxious people with an anxiety disorder feel this way for no apprentice reason. Usually anxiety is a reaction but anxiety disorders cause you to feel it when you’re not in any kind of threat
Amberrr
You need to work on being more confident in life, many people have problems talking or approaching people and sometimes it may be something has happened in your life that has caused the problem.
In my case I will not deal with workmen I prefer to leave it to my Wife, or if the workman asks me a question I refer them back to Hazel. In my case it was a learned problem from past activities with people who were not nice.
I would suggest Breathing Techniques that may calm your move. Relaxation Techniques Mindfulness may also help.
Have words with your Mam and see if a GP Appointment is a good idea, you need to nip this in the bud and move on
BOB
Thanks for the response! I will try that from now on, thank you!
Thanks for the response! I see, Thabk you for telling me this! It’s appreciated!
Thanks so much for this reply! I really appreciate this, I’ll try to talk to my therapist more and try to open up. Thank you!
No problem, I didn’t notice my auto correct mistakes before but you get the gist. I get seasonal depression as well. But hey, if it weren’t for the pains, joy wouldn’t feel good. Hope you feel better soon.