hi im gary ive been stugling with depression and panic disorder for 7 years now im 31 i used to be a confident outgoing person then i split with my childrens mother which im not sure made me like this or not i remember the day i had my first ever panic attack i thought i was dying i thought i was having a heart attack or stroke it was scary. i was dj'ing ind a bar and i had pins and needles all over my body i felt dizzy couldnt breath blured vision and chest pains, i had to tell the owner of the ar i need to get out i must have looked like a mad man i was in a city centre and was looking everywhere for a place to hide it sounds strange but i hid between to bins in an allyway i was there for at least 2 hours, then i forced myself back to the bar i was dj'ing in and my boss who was also a friend was looking at me like they was worried i did the silly thing of downing 10 shots of vodka i didnt even get drunk but all the symptoms went away i then began using alcohol as a way of keeping them scary feelings away until i was drinking 10 litres of strong cheap cider a day and i became alcohol dependant i lost everything i was having alcohol related siezures and nearly died a few times i was also in a coma doctors said i was so lucky as my organs was shuting down but i stopped the drinking did a detox in hospital and went to rehab after hospital for 6 months, i was also drinking on diazipam 40mg a day for 7 years i now clean off the alcohol but its like im back at sqaure one and all the anxiety and panic symptoms are back from waking up till going to sleep im still taking diazipam as its the only thing that helps me slightly but the doctors are wanting me to come that soon but ive explained i cant yet, i dont leave the house now its ruined my life ive tried suicide a few times in the past due to this. i have no life at the minute im just existing....... Can anyone relate to this as i dont know what else to do??? Thank you...
Gary
You not alone I dont leave my house either but I dont take anything I do have ativan but dont take it unless I have to
Hi Gaz i have been suffering from anxiety since i was 11 and right now I am dealing with dissociation. My heart is racing at the moment and I feel very uneasy so I know how you feel. Its a debilitating condition so you are not alone.
You are not alone . I was once alcohol dependency because of my depression and anxiety. I suffered from panic disorder since 2002. I am also on diazapam 15-20 mg a day that that’s what it saves me. You are definitely not alone. My Dr wanted to wean me off diazapam too . 😭
Hi Gary;
I have had anxiety and panic attacks for 30 years off and on. I am now going through a period of depression and anxiety and cannot leave my house in fear of having a panic attack in public. It is called agoraphobia. I take Xanax which is the drug of choice for panic disorder but highly addictive and harder to come off than heroin. I feel like I am just existing also but know it gets better because I have felt this way before. Are you on an antidepressant? Are you seeing a psychiatrist? It might be a good idea as they can get you on the right meds. I must say however if you are on any kind of med that depresses your central nervous system like Valium you CANNOT drink. It makes the effect of the pills worse and can stop your breathing as you know. Hope you get the help you need and feel better.
Hi;
Benzodiazepines are good meds if used short term and are not poison. They help a lot of people. I have seen this as a nurse. As with any other controlled substance, they get a bad rap because of the people that abuse them which in turn keeps doctors from prescribing them to patients who could benefit by them.
I did abuse them before because I didnt know them but now I have benzo and am very careful of gowns use it so I agree with you completely
Sorry I meant to say how I use them now and not all people abuse them at all if it works why not
Do any of you get knumb hands ?
I get them when I lay down and at night ??