Anxiety and ssris

I’ve been diagnosed w GAD for a few months now, she says that it sounds like I’ve had this for awhile...just by the little bit I explained I feel like if I kept going on w everything how I feel they will think I’m making it up...but I told her bout how I’m scared of dying I can’t be at home alone I’m constantly looking out the window lights on tv down low I’m looking out window and keeping an eye on all entrances to my house . I seen my mom take her last breath when I was 17 she jus turned 41 and ever since the. I’m scared of dying I have a 6 year old and I think of it everyday like what if my life is half way over? I don’t want to leave my daughter my mom had cancer and I hope I don’t get it . It interferes w my daily life bc there are things I would like to do but I don’t bc I’m scared of dying . I don’t like going to family get together bc I see everyone and their families together and it gets to me that I will never have that .  I don’t like to go out w friends bc it’s not that I’m shy I just feel like I’m gonna say something stupid or anything and they will look st me and make fun of me . I want to enjoy life . Everyday there is things that go thru my head and I don’t like it . What does this sound like ??? I also get these tinglin thru my arms and this rush thru my arms it’s hard to explain but then my chest hurts and it’s hard to breathe and that comes and goes . My doctor gave me Paxil but the side effects were horrible so she switched to me lexapro and it’s not helping either I can’t sleep I feel nauseous and it starts making me depressed and I’m not the doctor even said I’m not . I’ve been on Zoloft and Prozac both before n didn’t like how it made me feel . I’m lost on what to do?  She said taking the lexapro and possibly see a psychiatrist but I don’t kno how to even go about that . These ssri medicines do not work for me . What should I do?????

I feel the same way I just refuse to take all those meds. I have Xanax for when I feel an attack coming on.

See my doctor said she’s not a fan of Xanax and it’s cousins but these ssri medicines aren’t working . I stopped taking them I didn’t want to call her back and tell her again . 

I dont take anything either but do have Ativan if I need it .