Firstly, and I know this is going to be a massive point of contention - I self prescribed my self Diazepam.
I am in a country where this is actually possible.
I was having serious anxiety and basically increased angry/over board reactions to things around me. I was overthinking things and letting them get to me. I was also suffering from public anxiety. This anxiety was not small, I my heart beat would race so much that you could actually see my beard pulse with each beat.
I’ve been on Diazepam for about 5 days now, and I am finding it isn’t helping me. I feel a little sleepy during the day, but that is it. All the anxieties the stress, the reaction to small situations at home are all still there. I even tried 10mg today as I had to do a team presentation and my voice still quivered like mad.
I was only planning to take it for a couple of weeks to get me through in the hope that I would eventually even out my mood as it has never spiked like this.
I have 4 tablets left, i will half them and take them over the next few days and stop (although i am pretty sure I haven’t been taking them long enough for withdrawal.
What is my next step?
Should I try Valium?
There is absolutely nothing like CBT/therapy here. There is also no real mental health experts either which is why I am doing my research and trying things that I hope will help.