I think my main problem is anxiety (which causes the depression). I have not had many jobs but when I do work I find it extremely stressful. Even if I get on with everyone and can do the job I find that it gets increasingly difficult to go into the same place every day. The longest I have lasted anywhere was 2 years. I get knots in my stomach before I go in, then when I'm there I find it mentally exhausting because most of the time I'm having to pretend that I'm perfectly fine and everything is normal, when really I am feeling super stressed. I worry about making mistakes and the longer I'm there the more of a worry this becomes. I can't imagine going to the same place to work for years on end. But it's not like I'm not a capable person, or particularly introverted. Yes I lack confidence and it can take me a long time to feel settled in a new environment with new people, but even when I'm feeling not too bad in a job it's still a relief to go home, and then the worry starts about going back in again! Added to that I have had a stressful number of years and I had to quit my last job due to developing fibromyalgia, which I think was caused by years of stress. And when I am feeling super anxious the fibro pains increase. So how am I meant to ever work again???? And how do I explain all this to a psychiatrist without sounding like a complete layabout?
Hedda, I thought I was the only one in the entire world felt that way. It seems as though everyone else could go to work with no problem. I had to hide my anxiety for many years. I just can’t find a job that I feel comfortable with enough to not mind going in every day. it’s just too stressful for me. I dreaded Monday.
I was extremely shy growing up in most likely had social anxiety because I just wanted to stay home with my mom all the time. I didn’t like going to school because of the shyness. I’m not shy anymore but I just don’t feel super confident at any job. It’s very frustrating.
I am not sure what the answer is especially as I get older.
so I know exactly how you’re feeling. Just tell the psychiatrist the truth about how you are feeling. He or she should not judge you they are supposed to remain neutral.
I have been to many counselors which have helped a little bit. I tried to remain optimistic and I do listen to audio meditations on YouTube for anxiety and depression. Let me knoW How you are doing. 🌸🌸🌸
Thank you Jan! I thought I was the only one too. I can completely relate to everything you said. I'm in my 40s now and honestly all I want is to get myself a steady job (that I don't dread going to) and a 'normal' life. Anyway, thank you for making me feel not so alone. XXX
Why are you seeing a psychiatrist for fibromyalgia?
Are you taking any medication? I hope you do not mind my asking?
hedda99
Are you seeing a rheumatologist for the fibromyalgia?
If so the psychiatrist will not be involved.
Hi, no the rheumatologist sent me to a health psychologist for the fibro but I have mental health issues which I've struggled with for a very long time so she referred me to the mental health team.