Anxiety can mentally break you apart :(

Mental health
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Hi...

So this all started 5 years ago for the people who havent read my story. It started with a cold drop of water to the back of my head, It came from the ceiling in the hospital out of nowhere and really freked me out big style. First panic attack. It started with a light tingle to the left side of my head which made it worse. Gradually it shifted up the side of my head, Face, Pressure , Burning , Prickly. Tpu name it I had it. Not like a headache, Like under the scalp. Anyway I got on with it and tried to ignore it. Hard as it was. Anyway I was on Amitriptine for 5 years. I stopped taking my meds 4 months ago and felt great. Till out of nowhere I had a panic attack which brought all my old fears back. Dreaded feelings, Feeling alone, Not wanting to talk to anyone, Running to my parents and talking non stop to my hubby about it. Now leading up to the first attack 5 years ago I had a lot of stress which I brushed off as per usual. Now I just feel lost and not excited xmas is around the corner and im worried something is going to happen constantly. Im now on fluoxitine have been for nearly 4 weeks. I had a good few days then sudden blips. ive had every test going and apparantly its all anxiety. Its really getting me down as if the physical symptoms werent their I wouldnt be anxious....Sorry to bleet on but any advice would be much appreciated. ..x

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I'm the same but also feeling weak faint dizzy stomach problems I have been diagnosed with GAD but it's starts from when I open my eyes first thing I've been on sertraline 25mg 1 week and 50mg 1 week xmas is going to be a nightmare been like this for 3 years now been on 7 different AD but made symptoms worse hoping these work fingers crossed it's just a long journey and my mind keeps telling me it's something more serious take care x

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Its a nightmare. Mine starts the moment I openy eyes too.  I actually sleep very well. Surely if it was serious it would be constant?..Like u wouldnt be able to sleep ?..I also have been diagnosed with GAD...x

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I love this support group tho it sort of makes u think different cus as the minute I feel like I'm going insane have a good xmas if poss and I will try and do the same x

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Merry xmas to you too...And a Happy new year....x

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dear Stacey. You are not going mad and you are not going to die. It's anxiety. The more you think about it and worry about it the worse it gets. It is not an illness. it is your own defence system releasing adrenaline into your system which causes many different physical responses, none of which will harm you. You could try getting some beta blockers from your GP as they reduce the physical symptoms, especially to the heart. This can allow you to not worry so much about the sensations and therefore relax a bit and therefore the anxiety will slowly decrease. Good luck.

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I feel just the same ATM. It's been up and down since August sad changed my citalopram dosage twice in nearly 8 weeks and I'm freaking out. Not looking forward to anything... Which makes me feel worse as I'm so aware that I'm not well! It is so incredibly frustrating, I wanna scream snd punch yet I have no energy. I desperately wanna be happy for the festivities and mainly for our 2 weeks holiday starting on the 26th. So terrified to ruin everything! All I do is talk to my other half who doesn't really understand and I know it goes in one ear and comes out of the other sad worst nightmare it is that's all I can say sad let's hope we'll all manage to have a good time over Christmas xx

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Thank you so much for your reassurance. I was never like this ya know.Care free, Couldnt give two hoots never a worrier then Booooom. Melt down city. I love this website. And again, Thank you all..xx

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Im the same. Just dont look forward to anything lately. I can see the light at rhe end of the tunnel but still no where near what I was. I feel every symptom in my body then it freaks me out. Today was I moved my neck and I got a hot sensation up the side if my head around my ear and down my neck. Like really hot. Then I remembered last time I starred Amitriptiline this happened. Its awful, Stressful and just sucks the joy out of the sunniest of days. We will get there. .xx