Anxiety depression related?

Mental health
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I'll start by giving you some details about me - Im 23, male, good health (ish), great shape, gym goer. Suffered from panic attacks and anxiety for around 4 years, been taking 50mg sertraline for that up until now. Had a really rough childhood. also suffer with body dysmorphia. 

The past 12 months or so, I've been getting these really crazy periods of fatigue, I'm not sure what triggers them, although I've linked a couple of them to appearing right after stressful things happen (such as losing my job). I wake up with a pounding headache as if I'd been awake all night, high temperature, completely weak and find it difficult to do anything (can just about walk). I'm so IRRITABLE with it, everything p****es me off, even being to hot makes me want to punch something. Anyway, they'll last for around a week and disappear, but to return 3 weeks later. This was going on for a while, however, now i'm struggling to remember when the last time I didnt feel like this was, it just became more frequent and now I feel as though the gym is making it worse. I have body dysmorphia and the gym is super important to me.

As mentioned above ive been taking sertraline for 4 years, and although they kept the panic attack at bay, I never felt happy and ive always been angry and irritable. I get into fights when im drunk, I lose friends quite often, I cant hold down a job. Even though I have a muscular body I HATE IT. i HATE the way i look, always compare myself to others. So all that being said, the sertraline clealry werent working. I stopped taking them 2 weeks ago and went through the motions of the side effects which have now subsided and I'm just back to feeling regular old fatigued again.

I know that Post Exertion Malaise is a huge symptom of CFS but i literally feel crap an hour or two later, and I never felt great before I worked out. I dont get how my body has shut down in a matter of 3 months. I've had ALL blood tests done, and I'm a "picture of health" - I take vitamin supplements anyway, as I'm willing to try anything. I've cut gluten out completely and dairy somewhat. 

My GP is completely useless and unwilling to explore further and has referred me to a CFS specialist which could take months due to the "wonderful" NHS waiting times we have in the UK. I've also ordered a cortisol test which has cost me £90 as i dont think the doc tests for this. This is used to test for adrenal fatigue, although apparently my adrenals were fine in my last test. 

I'm completely at my witts end. I really dont beleive its CFS (or dont want to beleive it). Am i missing something? is there a condition I've missed? i've become increasingly obsessed with googling stuff to find an answer because my doctor cant be arsed! He literally wont test for anything else now, I have to cure it by myself. 

Could this be a mental disorder? could it be depression without neccesarily having a reason to be depressed? I'm always sick, my quality of life is hurrendous despite my efforts to keep in shape and eat healthily. Im so so so tired.

Please, anybody

Danny x

 

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Hi dan sorry to see your struggling have you considered seeing a different doctor. Maybe be considered for councilling (CBT) increasingly your meds. There is options out there mate. My self is struggling with Anxiety ocd. I got major anxiety this wk. I have realised big night outs really affect me so now i am changing the way i do things cut down on my drinking and the amount especially. I get major drink anxiety the next day. I would see a different doctor different opinion. 👍

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Hi Dan! Firstly it's refreshing to know it's not just women that go through this and guys do have experience and understanding of these horrendous periods in life. Im 29, have been on Citalopram for quite some time due to depression and anxiety. I have on off anxiety which lately has been through the roof and no matter what I do I can't control it. Life you, I have zero energy along with feeling hot, sweats, headaches, waking up feeling like I've had no sleep and after a normal day at work I come home feeling absolutely shattered. I've gone to the docs so many times and they've run tests and put it down to CFS as found nothing wrong however I don't feel that's an accurate diagnoses and the GP just says that due to clutching at straws and not knowing what could be wrong. I eat healthy and take vitamins etc but 5 days out of 7 I feel like death and as I said before my anxiety is so bad it litterelly stops me from living my life normally. I come on here just so that I can speak to others with similar problems because I find that in the 'real world' friends and family don't/won't understand and they just say its laziness or making things up and over reacting. I know I don't have any answers for you in my reply but I just wanted you to know that you're not alone x

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Hi, i just wanyed to say i do know what you mean about the drinking anxiety, next day its horrendous.

No sleep or not enough gives me anxiety too the next day.

Dan, you need to listen to your body and do things for you, ut does sound like a type of depression.

Start making YOU happy, anything , walki g sleepi g swi.mjng, colouring what ever ut takes , sounds like your body and mind need a bit of time out.

Take care

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Hi what i mean is the day after a big night out., it makes my anxiety worse if i think i may have done something, which is my paranoia, we may all get that but like me it becomes like the end off the world.