currently having a panic attack i weaned off my medicine and I smoked a cigar with a friend lastnight and I just woke up having a panic attack
Hi Kevin,
How often do you smoke with your friend? I think maybe if you do this infrequently the change of patterns in your life can make your brain think something could be wrong, but you should tell your brain that you have done absolutely nothing wrong since before you smoked a cigar and when you woke up today.
Remember that projecting an activity onto why you are having a panic attack might not be the correct activity. A lot of the things we take in through life are subconscious and it could be something non-sinister at all. You could just be having a day where you’re struggling and we all have those days when we wake up with a fear and try and find anything to place it on.
I made a silly decision of trying a recreational drug a few nights ago out of stupidity and this has caused me to rebound to my anxious state where I am terrified of my future and worried that I have messed my brain up for good somewhere and that I will never be normal again, although I hardly notice it there are probably more times that I feel optimistic and normal and like I said to you, any change in monotony for a person who may suffer with anxiety can trigger unease since we’ve done something that’s out of our sense of ‘normal’
I hope this helps shed some light on why you may have had a panic attack and I ended up with a nasty attack the day after my birthday from visiting my family. I think it just overwhelmed me a little but it’s nothing to worry about since we all process things in life differently - if we were all the same that’d be a bit naff.
Take care Kevin, I hope you start feeling great soon and if you have any more questions I am here 
All the best, Kyle
Definitely made me feel better brother! it was the first time I’ve smoked a cigar in months probably but I did end up taking a 10mg Celexa and I took 5mg tonight I don’t know if this helped or made me feel the side effects I just feel really anxious right now and I think its my body telling me its confused because I weaned off my Celexa for 4 months and went down to 5mg on and off for the last month so maybe my body is just trying to get used to whats going on?
Sometimes we get those bumps on the way to recovery and the first thing I want to tell you is that you are fine and you have done nothing wrong and what you are experiencing is a reasonable reaction to doing something that is outside your usual schedule. Sometimes we experience nervous thoughts and anxiety as our bodies way of dealing with something that’s perceived as a threat.
I usually find my anxiety is the worst on the morning and gradually eases toward the night and feeling so up and down can be exhausting. I made a stupid mistake recently which brought my anxiety back on with a vengeance and it has taught me a lot about having more self control. Your body will be confused at these emotions and doubting your progress and asking “Why do I feel this way?” and what you have done wrong will only feed into these feelings causing a vicious cycle.
I suffer with severe physical anxiety that can often make me feel like I am going to be this way forever, and I keep reminding myself I have had many good days even after my initial breakdown. Back then I thought I was going to be that way for the rest of my life, but before you know it you’re doing stuff that you said you couldn’t do a week ago! Remember you will get there, if you did it once you can definitely do it again.
Just remember that you are doing nothing wrong and discussing these issues with a therapist and talking through the processes that lead up to this could allow you to understand these emotions better and equip you to have measures in place to prevent them spiralling. If Celexa worked in the past for you I see no harm in discussing it with your doctor. I have family who have been on Celexa and even though they do not suffer with the anxiety and depression as severe as in the past they have remained on it as it gives them peace of mind.
Remember that sometimes these medications can have the paradoxical effect of heightening anxiety before therapeutic benefit is received. My response may be a bit muddled as I have been typing this while out with my aunt.
Take care, I wish you health and happiness.
All the Best, Kyle
thanks alot brotha means alot definitely helped i feel fine this morning still have a little anxiousness but we’ve all been thru it before it comes and goes so no reason not to have a good Monday thanks for ur time and if you need anything im just a text away!
I’m so happy to hear you’ve had a good morning! That slight anxiousness you’re feeling is perfectly normal as a result of this little bump along the way but you know now that we all have those days where that voice in our head or that knot in our stomach just won’t give up.
Enjoy your Monday, keep your head held up high knowing that you can just get on top of even the worst and come out the victor. You’re always in control of what you do in life, and that’s one thing I can tell you as fact! Keep fighting and taking each day as it comes because one day we will never have to worry about the dreaded thoughts and feelings and we will succeed together.
Really appreciate your offer for if I need anything, always makes me smile knowing there’s one more good person in this world. Take care of yourself Kevin,
Kyle