Hi, I have OCD for a number of years but until a few months ago my anxiety has got really bad. It started 11 weeks ago when I was on a night out (I had a little more to drink that I should) I met a guy & went outside after the bar, we kissed and (sorry in advance)he fingered me but I am nearly 100% sure that we didn't have sex (I am a virgin) ever since that night my fears have escalated, I can remember going home that night and I can't stop worrying and thinking negatively. I think what triggered me to really freak out was I thought there was a spot of blood on my underwear the next day, but I have washed them (3 times) since and it still won't come out so I think it is a bleach stain (was black underwear). I have been constantly looking stuff up on the internet to try and convince myself that I am not. It only made me worse to the extent I thought I had every pregnancy symptom, breast pain (was the worst it freaked me more than the others),pains in arms, sore ear, blocked nose, frequent urination all have subsided now. I had my period in april (was 3 days late with stress), then another period at the end of april, and another one 2 week ago I also took 2 pregnancy tests (both negative) one was a dipstick and the other digital test). It still hasn't helped my fears, I have acid fluex on and off since april and now I think my stomach looks bloated which has me terrified it is because I could be 11 weeks preg, I keep checking my stomach, I know I have been eating more foods like chocolate, takeaways because I found it comforting with the stress so it could be causing the bloating too. When I brush my teeth this last few days they bleed slightly so I'm worried that is symptoms too. It just feels like every single thing I have I now think it's pregnancy symptoms. I went for a smear test yesterday the nurse tried and was having bother getting the speculum in so she said to me, "Are you sexually active" and "Have you been sexually active before" she went and got another nurse to assist who got it done no problem but she said there was a slight bleeding "erosion" and asked me was my period due (not due for another 2 weeks). She worried me and I asked the other nurse afterwards and she said the same happened to her the last time she had it done. Is this normal? There was watery discharge on my underwear afterwards but no bleeding was that normal? I think the first nurse hurt me though, I feel like I'm going crazy at times with constant obsessing and checking even if I sneeze I relate it to pregnancy. Please help, Thank you for kind advice in advance.
My sister tried to give me advice, she said I have to think logical after 3 periods and two negative preg tests how is this possible. She knows me so well though, she said I'll worry and stress for 9 months about this and only then will I stop my fears. I am starting to think she is right.
Teresa
If you are stressed or Anxious after the smear test etc would a visit to a female GP help to put your fears to rest ?
Your pregnancy tests have been clear although if you are stressed or Anxious that may cause the problems you describe
BOB