So thinking things are going well till I started thinking about the future what if this what if that Iv been worrying about my parents dieing not normal at all all I had going through my head last night before I was going to sleep I couldn't switch off that's all what was going through my head today anxiety all over feel sick to my stomach I don't know what to do I'm at the point of breaking again I can feel it going wrong , feel that bad I don't want to move not even talking to any 1 this is the only thing I can do to tell how I feel I need serious help big time I want this to end it's driving me crazy
Stay, strong, have faith it shall all become better
Hi Paul.I'm going through the same sort of thing.I've got so much on my mind, it makes me physically ill.Are you on any medication?
Nah I have been given them but I don't want to be dependent on them I was okay when I was hitting the gym but it got closed down and I don't like to travel a lot makes me kind of anxious , I dunno what to do any more I'm down low mood
Paul i am sending you a hug i know what that feels like when things go through your head and its hard to switch off. I find getting fresh air a little walk before settling down for the night. Do nice breathing techniques to keep calm and try not to worry about death even though its hard
hey Paul
i was about to go to bed then saw your posting.
My heart and thoughts are with you throu the night
Night times can be the lonliest part mof a day in our lives.
I am glad you turned your attention to this site and then openly shared exactly how it is for you right now.
Worry is just one part of what Anxiety means to us and the effects it has on our lives from bottom to top.
We are misread , misunderstood majorly and seen as often outright crazy.
It doesnt take much for us to then convince ourselves we are wrong and they are right about us.
Then if thats not eough we begin to think of the worse for loved ones, family and especially about all things to do with ourselves.
A headache becomes a brain tumor a small indentation on our skin becomes cancer and more n more we find ourselves totally entangled in Anxiety , I struggle to know what the truth is and what a lie is but the more I work on my isssues the more easier it becomes to identify what is truhth and what is a lie that can create real havvock in my mind ,body and soul and rob me of any peace that I amy of had or been searching for.
Anxiety to me means real isolation, hopelessness and overwhelming feelingrs that I cant stop nor be releived of by those that witness me in despair and in an unconsaolable state of mind and body.
As much as I hate my anxiety I am becoming more and more aware of the need to actually embrace it for what it is and to be able to define what is that lie that pops into my head , something like Im no good to anyone, I have no value to anyone, I have cancer or brain hemeraging ect ect.
And to see the lie for what it is.
Anxiety torments me in every way unless I begin to start to deal with it starting by embracing the illness it is and to begin to unravel and understand what it actually does to me.
I now tell the lie in my head to leave , it may take me to demand it leaves until it actually does but then that leaves my mind empty and this is the important bit now its emptyof that lie what am i going to replace it with.
and its here we can find the answer to what we already have deep inside us.
We can rpelace the lie with those thoughts which restore us to the point of understanding all the good and positive things about who we are and about my make up.
I am beginning to trust what I am saying to myself ..ie like hey your amazing, things like this I am replacing the lie for something so much more powerful than the negative my head has been full of.
here I am giving myself a chance to come back to the real me and to be set free and apart by the truth.
It places me on safer and stable ground.
of course people are going to attempt to kick me down again and sometimes I will fall over and feel back at step one again.
But the truth is I am empowered by what I have willing opened myself to learn and to be assured there is a better place to find myself and feel secure which is not where the lies and strife of my aniety take me.
I wish yourself all the healing and that we may all aspire to a place of calmness and find in our lives all that we have been searching for and then give thanks by imparting all those amazing gifts we have been given through what we have experienced and share them on to others behind us who are out there hurting and suffering as we have known thorughout our lives.
Maybe I have gone to deep n meaninful this time round.
Its late and I need to go to bed.
I hope I am understood here
LOL
PJ
Thanks so much for that needed to hear that!
My anxiety is taking over and my family is so important to me
I woke up at silly o'clock with negative thoughts on my mind, that has just helped no end...
Thank you PJ...!
Just woke up myself and read youyr email.
I am so pleased that what I said made some sense and was helpful to you , even at silly hour.
I love that new word to describe the time.
LOL
xxx
PJ
Stick us nutters in here
Learn be inspired , love and live a better life
Your in good hands in here
PJ
Silly o'clock happens all the time to me, but that advice will stick with me for longer than the frequency of my middle of the night wake ups..
I think we all need to remember that if we don't believe in ourselves and the will to make it through, who else will...??
Let's stay strong and be proud of our achievements, no matter how great or small... x
I am with you there Victoria.
I agree with everything you said.
Thanks for that
PJ
Thank you all for your help yeah night times are worse carnt switch off think to much about different things thanks again much love