Why is it that in some areas of my life I can be so confident, calm and collected but that one thing can turn me into a mind swirling wreck! I was really frustrated this morning because I'd got over-tired working hard for the past few days (lots of work stress) and so I bottled out of a situation because of my panic of what 'might' happen. I hope that if I hadn't been quite so tired I might have had the strength to carry on, but even so I wish that I didn't have to fight myself to get through it. I shouldn't have to have the strength to fight the panic. If I didn't have this stupid trigger I could get on with my life quite happily. Isn't it frustrating knowing what makes you panic but not being able to get past it?
I've got a therapy session on Wednesday so I'll definitely be concentrating on trying hard to get over this. I'm determined that it can be done.
I just wanted to share with people that get it - That's my rant for today over 
You cant beat a good rant, I wish I knew what triggers my anxiety there seems to be no reason most of the time, I can just be sitting watching tv quite happy and relaxed then pow I am a wreck feeling like im going to pass out and convinced Im going to die there and then, hope your therapy session goes well on Wednesday, keep us posted on how you get on but im sure with the positive attitude you seem to have it will work out for you, take care 
Fear of fear breeds fear, and anxiety. I found out after realizing that the feeling is just that, a feeling of impending doom. There isn't a rational reason, so it's an irrational state of mind that I had given my valuable time to. It's sort of like a car that almost hits you, you see it coming, then it goes by, you were frightened, but now, the car has passed, and your safe. Panic is that car is always headed your way, I prefer to see that car in the distance, thats how I feel, that feeling of relief is calming, then I relaize, I'm not walking in the middle of a road, never did, no reason to, rather walk on sidewalks where I'm supposed to be, no reason to play in traffic, got better things to do.
Yeah its horrible mines usually at work when i get put on a spot with a question or someone rings me and i cant always understand what the problem is I kind of shutdown and then just need to breathe. I'm an overthinker aswell which really doesnt help the situation and have actually gone back on to meds as helps me control it and feel more confident as am relaxed.
Hope the therapy session goes well and be great to hear if its helping you out. You sound very positive to get past it and thats a brilliant sign.
I can identify with sort of shutting down, I felt that way in my 20's when I was talking to girls, but I'm glad that was a passing thing. I became a salesman, and enjoyed the back, and forth with closing a sale, I am an extrovert, don't know any other way to be. I face challenges, not run away, and hide like I did when I didn't know what this panic thing was. Now that I understand it's a conditioned response of my own creation, I decided to reprogram my thoughts that benefits my life. When I find an interest, i pursue it to the best of my ability, I enjoy entertainment, all kinds. I enjoy most people, but most importantly, I'm in control, the way we are all supposed to be, if we want it.
I know how you feel, sometimes I could be sat there completely fine and then I'll remember something which might have been from years ago and will start worrying about it and I will worry so much that I dont put anything in perspective. Its not a good feeling, I hope therapy helps, ive been reffered for therapy but havent had any yet, i hope it helps for you
Thanks for the response and I know what you mean about talking to girls and feeling it in that situation. You sound really positive and glad you understand everyone is different.
I also think about past experiences, I don't worry about them, I get p*ssed off at myself for being so stupid at certain times, and wish I could go back to change things. Like a good friend say's, "the past is gone, it's the future that's the most important", makes sense to me.
I know what you mean! I am so frustrated with trying to keep calm on a daily basis, its so exhausting and frustrating!! Somedays if it gets really bad I cant even talk myself out of it or try to calm myself down. My dr just prescribed me klonopin and it has absolutely helped me in no way. I hope you are feeling better now! =)