lately i have been very stressed and depressed. i feel like i am losing control of myself, my mind and i feel broken. i feel like i am terminally ill or i will die. i am constantly worried and i am scared that it is beginning to show. i have 3 daughters 2 teenagers and a 6 year old. i am feeling withdrawn and scared that i will die and i am scared that if i go out in public i will just fall. this is ruining my life. i have no interest to do or go anywhere i feel lonely most of the time and most times i cry myself to sleep. i sometimes come on here to share a lil of what i am going throw but i tonight i am just putting all out there because i need help and i don't know what else to do. i am so scared
i know how horrible it can feel. like a dark hole, lonely, scared, sad.
have u ever thought about speaking to a counselor? THIS IS SO HARD to deal with alone!!
JUST VENTING is very helpful plus they can give u resources, etc
i really HAD to talk to someone in person cuz i was losing myself. i needed reassurance, guidance, etc.
FEAR is the enemy and if u let it, it can control your mind. but u dont have to let it!
REMEMBER YOU ARE NOT YOUR THOUGHTS!
NEGATIVE THOUGHTS ARE NOT BASED ON REALITY!
I Learned to let them go. i read a book called Finding Quiet. its great! TAUGHT me to acknowledge
the thought, then say " i know u are there, but you are a destructive brain message not based on reality. "
then right away, let it go and do something else positive. you have to be persistent. every time. eventually your brain will automatically block it.
you have to reverse the automatic negative scary thoughts or they get stronger.
the BEST gift you can give to your family is a healthy YOU!!
you CAN do it!
another thing is every day take 10" and tell yourself what u are grateful for.
i turn on beautiful music, walk and appreciate nature and everything in your life.
im getting to the point where its getting easier to stay positive.
SO get some professional support , keep busy, get a checkup so u know theres nothing to worry about, , when i do things to help others, the focus is off me and it feels good
to help someone who needs it.
TAKE CARE OF YOU BECAUSE THERE ARE PEOPLE WHO LOVE AND NEED YOU 
You need personal he[p. A good place to start is the clergy of your faith. They know where to refer you for reliable person to person help for your problem. Good luck.
thank you so much, i really appreciate your encouragement. will always remember them.
thank you