I have been doing mindulness meditation for nearly a year, it has helped loads with coping with various mental health issues.
Having been through this, i noticed that anxiety seems to be an guest that never wants to leave no matter how hard i try.
I work for myself, so the peaks and troughs of the past few years have left me in a bit of a state. I have a family that i need to earn for so when i enter quiet periods, panic and anxiety kicks in.
It is now post xmas, and i was determined to allow myself to enjoy it, but the more i tried, the harder my anxiety tried to spoil things, to the point where if i managed to think about my work in a more rational way, i would find other things to hang my anxiety off, and so on.
It is like i need anxiety to be around.
Surely norms dont behave like this.
I can only describe it as a way of preparing myself for the inevitable, yet the inevitable never happens, but i will waste huge chunks of my life preparing for it. I dont want to let my guard down.
What is normal?
I'm not sure what normal is Jonny.
I have read a book called "At last a life" by Paul David.
He suffered anxiety for many years until he finally met somebody who helped him.
He explains anxiety in detail and how he recovered fully.
Its been a Godsend to me.
You are under lots of pressure and anxiety has a field day with tired vulnerable minds.
I think that aswell as trying to get things done,live a normal life that you need to find the right balance and try to find time to totally relax. Mediation is great for this. I run a bath....light a candle and lay there listening to a guided meditation audio off YouTube.
Or minds need time to heal and that takes time but it also needs time to rest.
Im not sure if you are in any medication. Many people don't like the idea of it but I think if you had the support and reassurance off your GP.that would also benefit you x
Thanks Gillian.
I think years of healing myself and work has left me in a state where i cant even remember what i enjoy, or how to relax.
As for meds, i flatly refuse to use them. My GP is beyond useless, i learnt a long time ago to work it out for myself. He spent the entire time forcing meds on me despite me saying i no.
I too have read a book called "At last a life" by Paul David.
Meds have their place to help you but you should have a plan with your gp on how long for after you have recovered