Long story short.
I’m a disabled veteran. I have been diagnosed with Explosive Hypermania or something like that. Ever since I quit drinking my panic attacks have become horribly worse. Lasting almost all day.
Now what’s really unnerving, is these chest pains. Now, I can handle the pain, but the pain is triggering my anxiety. I have had EKGs done, a stress test, and my doctor assures me that nothing really wrong with my heart. Granted my blood pressure is high (at the peak of an attack my BP has gotten as high as 180/99) due to the anxiety and my LDLs are “borderline”, whatever that means. But other than that, I’m green to green.
But this chest pain is very real to me, then it’s hard to breathe, my neck is always tight and I get these random pains in my upper body. I wake up at night, gasping for air. I refuse to believe this is all psychosomatic and all because of my level of anxiety.
But that’s what the doctors keep telling me, and I can’t believe there’s nothing wrong with me physically. I feel the VA is misdiagnosing me. Any feedback would be appreciated.
The testing you had done would have shown if there was something wrong with your heart. And yes, severe anxiety can cause all the symptoms you get. I know people that were rushed to the ER thinking they were having a heart attack but it turned out to be severe anxiety symptoms.
have you had counseling? This is very hard to be alone with and it always helps to vent to someone else who can help.
the Key is to manage the anxiety so that you don’t get the symptoms or get less of them.
there are some great mindfulness meditations on YouTube for anxiety, depression, sleep, etc. they are really very relaxing. When you’re having a panic attack with breathing issues, search YouTube for something called stop panic attacks now. Then scroll to something called don’t panic. It’s in black letters. She guide you through the panic and it’s short and very effective!
you are definitely not alone! Millions of people get these symptoms with anxiety and stress. Including myself. relax your mind as much as possible and get some help with this. Take care
Yeah, I’ve tried tons of meditation, grounding, breathing techniques. Nothing really seems to work. It’s like I’m a stranger in my own body, like someone has hijacked my body and just puts it in overdrive.
The civilian side tells me I need to be on powerful drugs, but I absolutely detest taking medication. So it’s very frustrating and yes, very lonely.
The VA insists my symptoms can be managed by antihistamines and ibuprofen. I just don’t feel like they’re trying to help me at all.
I am not a veteran. I have a PhD degree f it means something to you. I was under a lot of stress and I am trying to survive PTSD.
My breathing problems, heart beat issues and panick attacks started during the third year of my PhD. After all the mobbing thanks to my supervisor. You need to go through it to have a grasp of what it is like.
I developed other things like sensing issues in my left arm etc.
I went to neruology had my MR taken, I went to cardiologists several times.
We are perfectly healthy! So you are.
As soon as I find a job the first thing I am doing is to find the best hypnotherapist around. Then I will get these fixed without medication and so on…
I hope you can also come over your problems soon.
This was very insightful, it’s still baffling to me that all this is in my head. I need to make sure. I hate the uncertainty and constant fear of wondering what is happening inside my own body.
Good luck to you as well.
Your subconcious mind is doing all of this. We can control the conscious mind and the subconcious takes whatever it likes to take.
So to come over these weird things cleaning up the subcouncious mind is important.
What I do to battle is:
Daily exercise
Sleep 7 hours
Eat clean and as organic as possible
No alcohol or too few
I never did drugs so it is not an issue for me
Say nice things to myself: Be kind to myself. Inner me loves me, is kind to me. "I am strong, I am my best friend, I am healthy, I am clever, I am beautiful, I love being me, I embrace myself.
And, pray. I believe in god, when I pray and feel the god close to me and watching over me it makes me extremely happy and relaxed. I am not a religious person but I can feel the god. Praying and being a good person keeps me happy and my soul feels relaxed I can feel it deep inside.
I suggest you to do some volunteer work if you think you can. Help people, make them feel happy. It is contagious.
And, one important scientific thing: Your brain can change. After we were exposed to stuff for long times our brain structure changed physically. Our cells have a shorter telomer at the moment. But this is reversible! It is like you can physically change your brain. This is called Neuroplasticity. We generate new cells and all the cells in our body are reset each 3 months! The state of mode you are in effects the newly generated cells structure and the telomer length. Telomers define how long your cells can survive so you can. Now, if you do exercise they increase in length by %33 if you eat healthy no sugar or other stuff that causes diabetes another 30%. If you find good friends or family members who appreciate you a bit longer. So it is not money not fame not anything else that makes us survive on this world. It is all about our health and happiness. Your brain cells can develop in a better shape and with a better code than it was yesterday if you fake happiness today. Fake it until you make it. To sum up:
Fake happiness if you are not
Make sports
Eat healthy
Do something meaningful for others
Feel gratitude
And believe that you will be better tomorrow
Because, you were meant to do something great on this world and you will play each role you need to play in others lives and I hope that they will appreciate it. I want you to be happy and healthy. Honestly, thats why I wrote this long. And, I pray to god with all my heart to heal you as soon as possible.
have a nice day,
Yes. I do carry a tremendous amount of guilt and stress around with me. I haven’t led the best life. People I’ve killed overseas, the friends that didn’t make it back, that I blame myself for mind you. I am in a better place now but I have a lot of stuff to fix.
It’s hard. This is by far the most challenging thing I’ve ever dealt with in my life.
You will fix everything, it is not easy but if have a burden to carry it is for a reason . Try to see the meaning in it. Once you understand leave that burden right there and move on. That’s how you will heal and you will have the tools to heal the others with same experiences. That is how it works and how we are all connected.
In my opinion life has a pattern:
situations
decision making
selection of a path
go through it
success or failure
learn and find the meaning
spread the light of your teachings to make it a better world for every single person who lives on the world.
Remember, the butterfly effect:
The Butterfly Effect: This effect grants the power to cause a hurricane in China to a butterfly flapping its wings in New Mexico. It may take a very long time, but the connection is real. If the butterfly had not flapped its wings at just the right point in space/time, the hurricane would not have happened.
So you are on a mission here on the world, once you complete your mission you will go back to where you came from as a soul. Try to find the good in what you have went through. You affected many people and were affected in return. Now it is time to pay by doing good things and showing gratitude. Do something good everyday to heal yourself. I will pray for you.
Does it make sense?
i really loved what you wrote it makes alot of since to me to feel. better about your self is to do something for someone else who is struggling with life also. thank you for posting it on here.