Ok so I've been suffering for a little over a year with anxiety and panic attacks following my brothers passing. I was put on zoloft for about 7 months (it was hell getting on and off, didnt work for me) and I use Hydroxyzine as needed. My anxiety attacks have gotten much better and less often with time, they usually showed physical symptoms such as upper body pain (felt like muscle and bone pain), my back felt like it was being streched with no relief, it would hurt to breathe etc. Lately though I've been noticing they're more mental...like the slightest discomfort or pain my mind automatically thinks the worst, or that I'm going to die..my hear races. My brother had brain cancer so on some occasions I feel as if I suffer with a brain tumor as well. Tonight though was strange. I went to bed feeling strange..sort of anxious but I was still able to sleep, about 2 hours later I wake up in fear, I start moving..though with my movements..it felt like I was out of my body or it wasnt me, I even started talking because my mouth didnt feel right and neither did my voice...down to wiggling my toes..I just felt so out of it..as usual..I paniced and felt like this was it...I was going to die and tears just started rolling..but I didnt feel like I was actually crying...it really freaked me out. Does anybody out there deal with this or has dealt eith it? Ive always been scared to search for help due to judgement. If you read all this. Thank you.
Hi ☺
Sorry you had that attack they suck !
It sounds like you were having a attack off dissociation.
The feeling of not being in your body or it wasnt really you , is dissociation ive had the feelings myself.
When you spoke and your voice seemed not right is also dissociation , while your experiencing feelings of dissociation its normal to have many different symptoms.
I have had the same symptoms before.
If you google depersonalized you will see those feelings you had is very common with dissociative symptoms.
Dissociation happens because of excess anxiety caused from panic attacks or traumatic experiences.
It want harm you and you want die from it .
I hope you start to feel better try not to stess about the symptoms it will make it alot worse .
Thank you so much ❤
I'm thinking that you most likely could benefit from speaking with a therapist who specializes in what you are going through. They see this every day and can help you sort out your feelings. This is hard to overcome on your own and it really helps to vent to someone else in person.
Depersonalization happens because your brain is trying to protect you from stress.
there are some great meditations on you tube for stress. Just search for Guided Meditations for stress. I listen a couple times a day.