hi, im 26 and since i was about 14 i have suffered with various issues, eatting disorders, self harm, depression etc. but over the past 3yrs i have been good, i have tried to put it all behind me.
The last 6months, anxiety and panic attacks have been creeping back. and i feel like im out of control, like i cant stop it.
My first anxiety problem, is it first comes out as a rash. its angry, raised and bumpy, itchy as the worst insect bite ever, and it spreads fast. mine is on my torso, back from the middle upwards, and at the moment, on my left shoulder and up my neck. so its visable. when i get upset or angry it just spreads. its horrible. anyone else have this? what do you do? i have aloe vera to calm it, it works for 15mins. i have taken anti-histamine to stop the itching, but it doesnt work. i had steroid cream, but it doesnt work.
I am finding it difficult to go out alone. I used to have no issue with this. but if i go out, i feel like everyone is looking, like people are talking, like something terrible will happen, then my heart races, i get hot and sweaty, my chest tightens, and panic sets in. then i must just get home. i have to drop everything and go.
When i am with family or friends i tend to be ok.
Work is so crap at the moment. i am very down about that, but i have to try and look at it, as i have a job. i tell myself to stop being ungreatful, and remember others arent as lucky. But thats not cutting it right now. People at work have noticed im not myself and i even cry if someone asks if i am ok. thats just not cool for me. i feel patetic.
I feel myself getting further away from myself and sliding back to old me.
i dont want to.
anyone help me out?