Hi all,
I was diagnosed in 2015 with depreaaion/anxiety and stress. Had a few really bad months but found a way to cope eventually. I met someone else, who like me also suffered with this horrible illness and we got along great. The cracks on both our routines began to show and we have began pushing each other's buttons - i'll admit sometimes on purpose but my anxiety has escalated somewhat since March after a really bad argument, my partner emailed his ex girlfriend the same night and when we'd sorted it out (the next day) he never mentioned it. I received a message from one of his ex's friends giving me a lot of verbal abuse and she then told me about him emailing his ex. I didn't believe it but his ex sent me the emails and it was true and he admitted it, said he was going to tell me after the dust had settled. Since then so nearly 3 months, i can't sleep properly, i panic everytime his phone goes off. I count the minutes it takes him to get home, i cannot react rationally to a normal situation, my work is being affected by my mood swings, the palpitations have started again and i just cannot get them under control. I've read every single self help
page available on the internet about how to deal with them and i just can't. I love him dearly and his daughter but it's beginning to affect our relationship severely and i feel like it's all my fault because of this stupid condition. I came off Trazadone because i felt i could manage and really do not want to start taking them again. They help numb things but don't deal with the issue itself.
Can anyone help me ... my life is about one more bad mood or outbreak of tears from crashing and burning 😢