I want to leave a few paragraphs for anyone who, like myself 3 months ago, ends up searching the internet looking for symptoms like I had, and are unable to find an answer.
At the start of June I started getting really bad diarrhea, upset stomachs, nausea, complete loss of appetite, and barely able to get out of bed, and it was making me really depressed (or so I thought). This went on for a few weeks before I went to see the Dr and was amazed to be told, that instead of my stomach issues causing me to feel anxious, it was more than likely that it was anxiety actually causing the stomach issues, which I just would not accept as I'd had no stressful events which could've caused anxiety, i was completely unaware at the time, that it would've been a build up over months, maybe even years, of smaller stressful situations which had built up till i simply overflowed. So I was prescribed citalopram and trazodone.
As the weeks went by and i wasn't really feeling much better, I still refused to believe that this was caused by anxiety. I hardly ate antyhing more than soup for a month, as i just couldn't face any food. But eventually, after around 6-8 weeks, i started to feel better, my stomach was settling down (when i genuinely thought i was stuck with diarrhea and no appetite forever), and i was eating more and more, until eventually, i could eat normally again and my diarrhea went away completely, and now, 3 months later, i feel great, better than i have done for the past 10 years in fact.
It is a very long, slow process, and even up to 2 weeks ago i was still having anxiety attacks, and grumbling stomach every so often, and i very much doubt i'm over it 100% even 3 months on, it will take a while to be 100%, that's if i ever am.
But i just want my story to inspire others who are searching the internet for answers, (as i did on thousands of occasions myself when i thought the tablets weren't working and it was lasting forever), and feel like there's no end in sight, to realise that it will eventually get better, and this most definitely isn't forever, because there are many times, especially in the first month, when it feels like it is forever.