I've never posted on any of these forums i've only read through them and made analysis off of what other people post. I've decided to finally talk about how i feel.
When i was 21 one day i felt like I couldn't breathe. Like my chest was congested and I didn't understand why. I would smoke Marijuana and drink like a normal person would so i attributed it to that. Then i noticed my mind would go foggy. I couldn't remember things the way I always did and I have an excellent memory. I wasn't as into things as I normally was so of course I thought it was something extremely negative. I'm a hypochondriac of sorts so any little thing makes me think imminent death.
It went away on its own and I didn't think much of it. Then when I was 25 it happened randomly one day and I my chest felt heavy again. It stayed for about a month or two then went away. The worst happened when I was 26. I'm not an avid drug user. I smoke marijuana when i get home from work and don't do serious drugs. Drink on the weekends etc. I had gone on a weekend trip and did a lot of running around bc I always feel that to enjoy life, I have to do everything. I came back and had the worst anxiety yet. I would cry every day thinking I was dying from Cancer. I felt debilitated. My stomach would act up and I had gastric Issues. I went to a gastroenterologist who said my spleen was mildly enlarged but i did not know why nor did he.
The dr sent me to an oncologist and my mind started racing. I web MD everything and was reading the most horrible things. My blood pressure went up. I freaked out. Could barely sleep. When i went to the oncologist i started balling in front of her bc I didn't understand why me. She did extensive blood work and said I was fine that my cholesterol was high but that was it. She told me to relax and enjoy life. Then it went away and didnt come back until last year.
I went on a vacation to Seattle and had the worst anxiety/tension and the most horrific headaches. The foggyness was there i realize time goes by so extremely fast. I dont understand it but then i think that i'm not really focusing. My diet was not the best..I don't exercise. I'm sure everything attributed. I also work in retail and its a stressful environment. I went to a doctor again last year who did blood work..checked my thyroid which is in excellent condition. I stopped smoking MJ for 3 months and felt better but went back when i was feeling good.
Throughout the year i'll randomly feel dizzy at times. Lightheaded so to speak. I have bad Acid Reflux so i think it also is contributed to anxiety. Not into things the way i once was. My brain is always going going going. I really just want it to stop. Im currently doing acupuncture with an asian doctor and getting massages as well as starting yoga and swimming. I can't live thinking I'm dying from a disease on a daily basis. I'm too young and happy (normally) to be going thru this. I wonder if others have my same issues.