So my anxiety always sky rockets when alone and I have no idea why.
I guess I have been feeling a bit lately lonely. I live with my partner, but I have different days off to her so I spend the majority of my day alone. When she gets home, we don't have a lot to talk about on my side because well, I don't really have anything to do other than the usual clean the house.
I have no friends to visit or close by family. Work use to be my social life (sad I know) but I had a good friend base there, and slowly but surely the job and working environment has changed so much that I dread going in now.
I sit in bored silence for 10 hours with no real work load and no conversation thanks to a lot of business changes (that's a different story).
So I am bored desperately at work and on my time off. And I just feel massively underwhelmed with my life at the moment. Whilst I have a lot to be grateful for, I just need some stimulation, something to look forward to or do at all.
Yes I can relate to your post. I get very anxious from taking my son to school until I pick him back up. I am used to working full time but at the moment I am on maternity leave so its just me and baby for the majority of the day. I find my anxiety starts to subside once the children are in from school and my boyfriend is back from work. I wonder if its because we are alone with our thoughts all day? Its lonely and you can easily start to have feelings of low mood.
I think that's probably the best way of putting it. It's like, I try to find everything and anything just to keep me busy but the second I sit still, I over analyse how I am. "I feel a bit dizzy" etc, and it just spirals then with negative thoughts. It's like a bad habit I have gotten into!
Yes thats exactly what it is...a bad habit! I read a lot or watch a film when I am not busy doing household chores etc...but sometimes the anxiety creeps up on me. Subconsciously my anxiety is in the background and yes when we focus on it it becomes a lot more intense. I suffer tension headaches and if I have a headache my anxiety is bad. I have also found over the last few days that if I am too warm I get over anxious too. In fact at the moment every little thing heightens my anxiety. I dont smoke, drink alcohol or take drugs. I have even cut out caffeine and try to drink more water every day. I have also started eating regular meals as hunger and low blood sugar gives same symptoms as anxiety.
I can relate it's the routine that has you feeling like this. Change it up a little go out while you're home alone. "Don't worry Be happy." Not everyone has a social Life. I don't I only talk with my mother or sister LOL. FML If that counts as a social Life. My anxiety is high when I'm with other people. I like being alone. I can just be alone with my thoughts and think. Self Reflect about things. If you feel alone why don't you go out more try to socialize and make small talk with a co-worker or any other person you feel you could be friends with. Don't feel overwhelmed your Life will be better but you need to try and change it so you won't feel so down and alone. Smile at someone you would like to get to know it makes you more approachable. I will say something dumb but whatever I hope you have a laugh about it. Dance like no one's watching loose yourself when alone and put some music that you like on. Im so weird Lol