Trying to figure out if this med is making me worse or better.
How long have you been on it?
A week
You should have been told this could happen..but the way you are feeling is unforgivable ..I am increasingly getting angry with doctors ..if you feel this bd go to Ehatever they cal it these days ..ER ..Casualty ..I am so sorry you are having to put up with this without support
It takes a lot longer before you'll see results from this medicine. I would definitely talk to your doctor about your suicidal thoughts though. The way someone on here described it for me is that the meds need to build up in your system. You'll gradually start feeling better but you will have drops in your moods but never as bad as they used to be. Good luck to you. Just know, there is a light at the end of the tunnel. Things will get better just keep with it. I've struggled for the past 25 years with depression. Last year I started this med and I've never been happier. It feels amazing to feel sane and stable. My name is Tara. Let me know if I can help.
Did you have those thoughts too?
I don't want to do that. It's just frustrating because I don't know if the medicine is making it worse or am I getting worse. It's so scary.
Yes, they would come and go for me. Do you have family or a support system?
Did they seem worse after you started the meds? Yes my husband is here and won't leave me. It's so embarrassing because I don't understand this.
How long have you been having these thoughts?
My biological father that didn't raise me and I never seen committed suicide 2 weeks ago. Last Friday I started getting depressed and then sat/sun the thoughts started. So it's been exactly a week. I'm only taking 2.5 of cit because I'm sensitive to med but it said to take 5mg but I was scared. I don't want to up because what if the med is making it worse.
I'm glad you have your husband there to support you. I recommend keeping open communication with him. Sometimes just saying it out loud can make you realize how bizarre your thoughts are and how it's really not what you want to do to your family who loves you.
What happens when you take medicines? I highly recommend taking the dose you were prescribed or at least talking to your doctor about the dosage. I'm a little surprised your doctor put you on this medication if you don't have a history of depression. The med is just known to take a while to get in your system. It sounds to me that you should be on a Xanax or other fast acting med. I'm not a doctor though but maybe discuss it with your doctor.
I've had depression once after miscarriage and I took prozac. I do have xanax but I'm scared to take it
I'm sorry to hear about your biological dad. So sad!
I did tell him and he is watching me during all of this.
Please take the Xanax that you were prescribed ..believe me it will save your sanity ..it's SAFE
I guess I'm scared anything will make it worse or make me act on it 
Xanax wil calm you ..please give it a go
Hi Nicole
I know how you feel, I had an intention to commit suicide before starting Cit. and felt suicidal alot couldn't get it out of my head. This was one of the reasons the Dr prescribed me this med. My suicidal feeling did get worse on and off and got to the point several times but talked myself out of it. Persevere with the meds, I've been on cit for 13 weeks and been on 40mg for the past 4 weeks. I am now beginning to get better days but do drop down quite low when I am having a bad day. Keep talking to your husband as it does help to talk. x
Has the thoughts went away now? I've never experienced before and it's so scary!