I was on cit last january after the stressful period after buying a house etc. they took a couple of months to kick in but they did the trick, and things went swimmingly from thereon in. I met a great guy three months ago and things were going brilliantly, having lots of fun and laughter, though also quite exhausting, going out a lot, drinking q bit, late nights etc, all normal behaviour in the first throws of love I guess. Then suddenly, bang. I felt low again. Five days in bed with the flu, skint and xmas upon us. Now Im just feeling dread, anxiety, low motivation, nervous and panicky. Ive briefly explained to my new boyfriend about my condition, and he's still there. He says he understands, but he's not actually witnessed me in my lowest state. Now Im questioning my feelings towards him, I really like him and he makes me laugh but he is also quite an anxious person and I wonder if thats gonna be good for me or him. or is it just the depression playing tricks on me?. My feelings towards him have been somewhat numbed by this bloody illness. All happy energy between us has been replaced with fear and trepidation.Im not sure what to do. Do I wait it out?
Hi Funky, Sorry to hear about your relapse; unfortunately I've been there too many times. I would advise this time tbat you stay on the cit long term. I was on a small dosage of only 2mg for years, yes as small as that. Maybe like you I made the mistake of not continuing to take them. Some people are on an ad the rest of their lives. I would easily run with that if it gave a semlance of normality. Improved health soon. mq7.
KEEP WITH HIM - AT LEAST IF IT DOESN'T WORK OUT YOU KNOW YOU TRIED.
MY GUESS IS THAT WHEN YOU BEGIN TO FEEL BETTER YOU WILL FEEL GOOD ABOUT HIM AGAIN.
Stay with it. Low spots just happen, there's nothing you can do about it. My advice is to try to make sure he understands what you're going through and why you're on these things in the first place.
try to figure out why you're feeling low and work on it, there's usually a reason.