I struggle with panic disorder. 6 years ago I got super sick (vomiting, diarrhea, dizzy, light headed , anxious, fearful and brain fog just an effing mess!) and had to take time of work. Could barely move from the nausea and everything else. Couldn’t even be alone. Doctors didn’t help much. Put me on Prozac and doxepin (to help gain weight again) I took Prozac for 6 years. The doxepin made me gain 45 lbs so after 6 years I asked doc to take me off of both of them. Weaned off then a month later took welburtin. Lots going on in my life wasn’t dealing well and got stomach sick again,,,that led to me spiraling like I did 6 years ago. Stupidly went of welburtin cold turkey out of fear. The got worse. Taking leap of absence from work cuz I just can’t funcrion. Doctor put me back on Prozac again. Only been on it 3 or 4 days . Still feel sick everyday and Feel crazy. Can’t eat: my mind feels all sorts of wacko. Ugh. I just want to feel normal again. Don’t feel like it.
So sorry you're going through all this, yet I understand completely as I'm there very often.
The only difference is that going to work helps take my mind off from things.
Yet just last week I was having many of the same symptoms you are having: vomiting, diarrhea, dizziness, light headed, anxious, and fearful..in addition to a brain fog so bad that I found it very hard to concentrate at work.
This past weekend was a tough one being the start of the holidays. I lost my dad the end of July and this is the first holiday without him. He was my best friend and my happy place...and I missed him so badly I almost couldn't stand it. While trying to keep my anxiety in check, I kept up on my meds, which helped a lot; yet I had a hard time getting myself out of bed...
In fact, I hardly got out of bed all weekend. No ambition and just this all over sadness.
While I used to be the sort of person to get up like normal, take a shower, get dressed and go about my day..it's just not there for me right now. I know how you feel..as I too would just like to feel normal for once instead of feeling again, like you..all sorts of wacko.
While my feeling are all over the place..the safest place I find is in bed watching tv with my dog. We bought my parents house and it's their bedroom I feel safest in.
Sometimes I feel like my anxiety is worsening as I can't stand to be around people much anymore, drive in crazy traffic anymore, etc., as my anxiety gets the best of me when people get too close to me. It's like people have no respect for personal space anymore and as I walk thought a store..I feel like everyone is right on top of me..and thus I usually step off to the side to let them walk past me. I have the same problems with traffic as if someone is more than a car's length behind me, I feel like they're riding up my rear end..tailgating...and I can't handle that either anymore.
All these things make me feel like I'm crazy!! I so wish I could get over my anxious feelings being out in public, and the safest place I find is in my parent's old bedroom wrapped up in my favorite quilts with my Golden Retriever by my side.
Again, I'm so sorry you're going through all of this. Hopefully you'll find a way to get better soon while I send warm hugs. I wish this too for myself, yet no matter how many meds I'm on lately..sometimes they don't seem to help much.
It's so frustrating feeling like this and I can completely feel your pain. Know that you have a friend in me to talk to anytime when you anxiety gets the best of you as I too could use a friend in the same boat.
Hang in there!!!
Hi Katie,
Goodness I so feel your pain is my pain. How long have you been feeling the intensity like I have? Since your dad passed? I had to stop work because my stress was work/ my boss. Love my co-workers love the kids but my bossss are so toxic. And I was in school. The last time this happens I was doing the same thing work and school and other things.
I’m so sorry you lost your father. Especially with how close you two were. That alone can cause a downward spiral. Have you been able to do any intense therapy or programs to help? It’s good your on meds. But I totally get it it only helps temporarily then all the fog and discomfort set in.
I have to believe we Will get through this. Last time I didn’t think I was going to get better. At all. But my sister and ofhbrf loved ones believed in me.
Are you married? Or any family?
My physical symptoms are constant not as magnified as the start but always everyday all day. Which is why I can’t function at work but your right given enough time it will serve a purpose to distract.
Thank you so much for reaching out. You have no idea what it means to me. I have such good people who love me and check on me but they just don’t get it or understand it and no what it physically or mentally feels like.
2 friends but one is in San fransisco and one I’ll meet up for coffee. But I’m too afraid to even do that. I don’t have the motivation to go out nor do I feel comfortable going out other than the daily therapy I have for 2 weeks. How are you to today?
T
Give the medication time to work upwards of five weeks or so
BOB
Thanks bob. Definitely. I’m still worried about going back to work. 😏.
Hi Katie -how are you doing? How are tour meds working? Able to do a little more?
I’m still struggling. My anxiety is peeking a little. Think it’s cuz I got back on my meds. I hate feeling this way. I just feel crazy. Fearful and weird.