Does anybody have dark thoughts about the future? I mean I used to have no problem planning ahead and just assuming I would be around to do whatever I was planning. Now I think "hopefully I'll be alive". I'm feel afraid to plan ahead.
Hi,
I feel the same I'm not myself with all these perimenapause symptoms
I started perimenapause about 4 months ago and I feel so hopeless
They say it will get better once the hormones settle
Can you share your symptoms and did you starred perimenapause, it will help us all well to share each others symptoms
Me too! It's so hard to motivate myself on my bad days. Mentally I'm just not who i use to be. Even with the things I love. My brain just doesn't work some days. I get flustered easy with the details of planning, paying bills, etc. Add in fatigue and all my other symptoms. It does feel like death. Harf to believe it's all hormones. I've been at this 18 months now. So many women have had this for years! I weep for the old me 
Do any of you get afraid to plan things because your not sure if u will be able to follow thru because of the inconsistency of symptoms?
Feel the same. I’m 42 and on hrt. My early meno makes me feel in despair. I think a lot about death, diseases and that the life will go on without me...I find myself thinking miserable things and have too dark things. I’m also scared about hrt but it’s a necessity for me.
Here I am thinking this crazy thoughts having perimenapause symptoms and thinking that there is something wrong with me I'm having this scary feeling that it's not perimenapause and that is something else I have this ear head neck and shoulder pain since Dec some days can be a little better but it's just there.
Thoughts!
Can you describe your symptoms when you first started perimenapause and how long did you have your symptoms any little info helps me especially if I just started perimenopause about 4 months ago
Hi Juanita,
Yes ,me too, I still plan things,but constantly feel I won't be around to do them. I have trips planned for February and March which I organised in September,as the dates get closer, I still feel detached from it all. I guess I will be around for them,but I'm not excited and feel indifferent to it all, like it belongs to someone else, the old me.
I have stopped planning and making promises. I had to cancel or find excuses for not attending some meetings. I now came to the conclusion that THIS PERI -me cannot stick to plans. Also I seem to be late leaving home and late going to places. Totally out of character. But I guess this is my new but hopefully temp character. 
How do you know you started perimenapause 4 months ago please? I think I only realised after a year or so that all my odd symptoms were due to peri. I for a long time thought something was really wrong with me when I had different issues and problems months after months. So I was very slow diagnosing myself.
I started researching then I found this forum and I can relate to other women symptoms like the ear neck shoulder pain headache that comes and goes also there are other women here that also have teeth ach and gums these symptoms started first with gerd then in Dec I started these other symptoms and then fatigue dizzy which comes and goes
How did you started and what symptoms did you have
Let's chat symptoms! Mine started with waking up and not being able to get back to sleep. Followed by body pain, weird buzzing feelings in my body, joint stiffness, fatigue, weird eye symptoms, off balance feeling, insomnia, anxiety, mood swings or depression (not sure what it is yet), tinnitus, weird/spaced out feeling, brain fog, sore breasts, irregular cycles, heart palpitations, weird head pressure, and the list goesn on and on. My symptoms rotate and bounce around.
I went to ten doctors and spent over 10k to be told I am healthy. Went to specialists, rheumatologist, neurologist, etc. I have test results the thickness of a phone book.
It wasn't until after a year and tracking and journaling that i began to notice it relating to my cycles.
I have had hormone testing done Just in the last few months and I'm still trying to figure out what to do next. It's been a difficult journey to say the least!
I know I've been going crazy I also get brain fog I'm going to a neorologist tomorrow and then of to the cardiologist so he can clear me and then back to my obg so I can get hrt as I sit here I feel my tooth aching that comes and goes I'm scheduled to go to the dentist but all this started when perimenapause kicked in, did you get ear neck pain shoulder
Hi Vicky, please can you tell me how long you have been on hrt and are they making a difference.?
Okay, I have to say I breezed thru peri. Stopped my period in 2010 and had no symptoms until 2014. I can't really really describe the feeling. I know rationally I can plan and most likely I'll be around but my mind takes over and my thinking becomes dark and irrational.
Hi imagine and Lisa, I stopped planning as well.. Can not do it! Never know how bad I could possibly feel.. And if I do absolutely need to do something that can't be changed my anxiety goes thru the roof just thinking of what it is I need to do and where I need to go its ridiculous... I just wanted to know how it makes you feel when you need to go do something that can't be changed, and you absolutely just have to be there?
That's a good way to put it Lisa. I weep for the old me. I came into my symptoms late. I my doctor last Thursday "What happened? I used to be fearless". She said "You will be again, we've just gotta get you over this hump".
I used to get to work early every day. But now I'm late at least two days a week. If it's a tough week, I'm late every day.