I'm a 17 y/o male in dire need of advice or help. I've lived with brain fog for what seems like half of my life. I've had brain fog ever since 5th grade and it's only progressively getting worse, year by year. I have tried every waking thing on Earth and I'm resorting to the internet. It's getting to a point where it feels like dementia. I have terrible anxiety, OCD, and worsening depression to the point of where I'm having frequent suicidal thoughts (the depression is recent, like a couple months). I take medications for the anxiety (Zyprexa and Klonopin) and I was put on Adderall mistakingly and we've tried multiple times to get off it. It helped the brain fog for a couple weeks. I don't feel like the medications I'm on are contributing to the brain fog, as it was much worse before I was being treated for my anxiety. The medications helped in a way... I'm not having panic attacks over the brain fog. But I could be wrong and feel free to correct me. I am also on a multi-vitamin and at a time, I had a breakthrough with this stuff called Pinella. It did wonders for about half a year until its effects started fading away. I've had blood drawn 3 times, I was in therapy for half a year, and I've been seeing the same psychiatrist for years. Nothing drastic has changed in terms of brain fog. When I try to explain brain fog to people, they look at me like I'm crazy. My parents are the only ones that truely understand it and they worry about me. I worry about myself and my future. Luckily because of my severe anxiety, I was put in a program at my school that gives no homework and class sizes are smaller. Even with this, I feel so confused and lost throughout lessons and I'm always bombing quizzes and tests no matter how hard I try. Both sides of my memory are terrible. I struggle retaining important things I've learned a couple months back in school. I've failed almost all of my EOC's as a result. What scares me the most about my memory is that I can never recall the easiest of things such as: "Did I take a shower last night?" or "What did I eat for dinner last night?" Absolutely NO recallation at all. I frequently forget what day it is and what I did last week... I can never organize things in my head, times confuse me, math is impossible to me now, my creativity is slowly fading away, and my imagery and inference skills are out of wack. Every day I hate going to school because I can't think. I used to love exceling in school. I read something and it doesn't translate into thoughts. Along with this, I feel like I lack common sense, my hobbies are diminishing, I slur my words, I can't hold a conversation, and my thoughts are scattered. I have a hard time following directions of any sort. When I do things, it has to be done at a normal pace and if I do it any faster, I get foggy. It feels like I'm a disabled old man. I wouldn't be able to hold a job for the life of me, if I can't pass an easier form of school, what makes you think I can go to college? Seriously, I've asked myself this question a million times, what's the point of living? I feel like an 8 y/o learning about life, when in reality, I'm not. I'm a future adult who needs to get his life back on track, when clearly he can't because of this frustrating brain fog. I have no future unless this is gone, please help me. I'm a huge mess as you can tell and as bad as it sounds, I'm desperate. ANY suggestions would help. This brain fog is destroying my life from the inside out.
Thank you,
-Tony